What are we all experiencing that we have in common blocking us from the feeling of Hashem’s constant bestowal of good upon us?
It takes its form in our unique lives….but universally, it starts from that enduring feeling of a lack of something we cannot articulate….THAT LACK itself is the veil behind which Hashem hides, the glue that we feel to searching for the answer to that question – and the glue itself is filled only by Hashem, invested in the natural force and the spiritual being He creates to rule over nature. That lack is the result of eating from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, what blo ds us to awareness of Hashem. Our effort to efface it, regardless of results, is our declaration of faith and trust. And it gives us awareness of Hashem after we no longer have free will. This saves us from harsh judgment.
Imagine if we had the depth of awareness to catch that feeling of lack with complete trust that it is Hashem Who is hidden in our nature as well as in the glue that binds us to nature! Imagine if we had the emunah and trust to recognize Him Knowing He is sending light and our inability to recognize Him is causing us to be attracted to explanations that are coming from nature unrectified. Imagine if we could instantly love Hashem and feel empowered to tell Hashem ein od milvado, we are emptying our hearts of all natural reactions out of love for You and a yearning to draw all of this light that is hidden into the hollowness we are opening by our yearning and emunah and trust in You. By so emptying, we ask that all of the light fill the hollow with awareness of You that feels like Your Compassion without any veils or confusion blocking it.
The darkness is something we all know. We walk together there in an instant, with anxiety, anger and more, as we blast past this initial inception of the feeling of lack without even noticing it and we fly into imagination, judgment, blame, shame and pain.
With emunah and bitachon that are strong, and seeing that we are all suffering from the natural forces that are intertwined in our nature, we CAN daven and empty and yearn and….receive.
Hashem desires a being that can recognize Him, describe the nature and submit it.
So now what does this tell us? How often are we pained by something someone says or does that throws us into this place? What if, instead of judging, blaming and shaming, we understood this instant lack, anger, lash out process, sad mad bad, fight or flight response and instead of judging, take our hurt reaction, if any, and instead listen deeply to the other and attempt to give them reassurance, love, explanation, a listening ear. And if they continue to lash us, what do we do? We can take everything within us from our own nature that corresponds in that moment and say ze Hashem. We can tell Hashem that we know He fills all the worlds and everything including all these reactions. We can tell Hashem that we are aware and because we are aware, we are emptying our reactions into His love, hollowing out not only our subjectivity but also the natural forces that bind us to these reactions, the very forces of nature, so that His Infinity hidden within these veils becomes revealed and incorporated into our spiritual being and housed in our hearts.
Instead of snipping a retort back, instead of rejecting the other, instead of calling them abusive, or other labels…THAT is the opportunity to say ze Hashem. love Hashem. Breathe. Empty all of our reactions into the truth of His Love. And realize that by affecting nature, we are helping all of us be able to access His Love. We together can weaken the forces of darkness by infusing more and more of Hashem’s revealed love into them when we submit our natural reactions for this purpose.
May we understand deeply that we are all on one team to rectify nature by doing so. But it must be our free willed choice. We easily choose it when we realize that it is our mission and our eternal identity. We easily choose it when we realize the happiness of the soul when awareness of Hashem’s Infinite light drips into our spirituality.
Overlook. Forgive. Send love and light. Be understanding. Be less reactive. Be wise. Be your complete self.