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Update on first emunah mindfulness zoom

 

The first emunah mindfulness zoom gave the participants the opportunity to formulate a framework understanding of how to feel Hashem’s outpouring of love and mercy so that we may reveal it.  Regardless of actually being able to do so, understanding the steps and why is helpful.

 

Here is what we discussed.

 

There are two universal points that we all share.

 

Firstly, every one of us has a Divine energy, a creative flow, a compassion, that is our essence.  Our soul  knows intrinsically that Hashem is outpouring love and mercy to us in every moment, even though we may not feel it. Know there is Hashem.

Secondly every one of us has a physical body, a brain, a neurology, that has as the center of its emotions the limbic system..  We experience everything through our limbic system.  When we feel a lack, we feel sad, then frustrated, and then we have an aggressive urge as our survival instinct attempts to address it.  Sad, mad, bad.  This is our brain’s “knee jerk” reaction.  We certainly feel these reactions, everything from anger to fear to insult to depression. From understanding the starting point of our reactions, we may develop ourselves and learn to regulate our emotions and conduct ourselves in acceptable ways. At the core of our physical reality is also Divine energy, a creative flow, a compassion that is hidden and concealed. There is no other Power.

 

Our challenge is to bring together the concealed compassions and feel Hashem’s love and mercy so that we may reveal His Love and Mercy.   In other words, with the limbic system, we want to feel Hashem’s love and mercy so that we may choose to reveal love and mercy over our natural reactions. Hashem is One.

 

We discussed the process of calling out our unique situation and feelings while simultaneously feeling love for Hashem and awe in how He has designed us to bring everything back to Him.  Our emunah is the crossing guard that stops the traffic in our brains so that we can take twenty minutes to breathe, to disconnect the compassion hidden in our natural reactions and naturally attracted to physical and material survival.  We disconnect it through mindfulness and feeling love and awe in the design with which Hashem makes the world.   Love Hashem. Have Awe in Hashem.

 

We remember our role is to unify the hidden compassion concealed by our physicality with the essence within us that is in direct connection with Hashem’s compassion at all times.  By using our free will to turn to Him, with our struggles in our heart and with love and awe in our heart at the same time, the hidden compassion concealed in our painful situation merges with the compassion that is directly connected.  We ask Hashem to please help us feel the compassion so that we may reveal the compassion.  In so doing, from within our limbic system, we gain more of an ability to reveal Hashem’s love and mercy instead of the former natural reaction alone. Guard our soul from running after our eyes and hearts after which we are drawn to go astray.

 

People gave examples.  It is up to each of us, though, to actually do the work.  It is not enough to read about it, it is not enough to understand it in theory.  The healing comes from actually doing it.

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Emunah Zoom

Parshas Shelach – Commentary from Ohr HaChaim – the land is good

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Please print the pages in pdf above or jpeg below from Ohr HaChaim and from Apples from the Orchard (Arizal commentaries) to see an example from the Caleb on seeing the good.

The reason these pages seem so relevant is to give us strength in our personal challenges to have the where-with-all to know it is good and to comprehend Hashem as all good.  The explanations help us to understand the spiritual dynamics deeply, with appreciation and gratitude for the opportunities and a whole perspective above how we might otherwise feel.

We are truly empowered to transform concealed compassion into revealed compassion.  May we feel Hashem’s love and mercy more and more in our hearts and may our victories help all of us have souls that do the same so that His Love and Mercy is revealed.

 

Do you have a mood you wish you would be able to turn around?

Who has at some time wanted to change a mood?  Are there times  when we are not triggered by anything from our outside perceptions, yet are feeling down or blue?.

 

What if we are in a mood of some kind, sad, worried, searching?

 

When there, we are not feeling Hashem’s outpouring of love and mercy.  We are “waiting” to find a thought to follow to validate our mood.

 

That mood, which we think is “us”, is a covering over the pure compassion with which Hashem makes our soul.

The pure compassion hidden within it knows with complete clarity that Hashem is outpouring infinite love and mercy upon us.  But that message is not felt due to the thick cover that Hashem designs for each one of us so that we have free will to seek Him out.

 

We have within us a light of Hashem that is total compassion, and our mission is to make more and more transparent the coverings so that we can reveal Hashem’s love and mercy.  We are His Agents.  Let us not keep the secret hidden!

 

But how?  How do we actually nullify the coverings?

 

There are many pathways out there.  Find one. What matters is the recognition that Hashem, Torah, and the Jewish People are One.

 

We can bring more and more visibility of Hashem’s compassion through our hearts to our speech and deeds.  As we do, that very place of struggle, the strength that stood fast as the covering, becomes the strength of connection to Hashem and the vessel through which His Compassion shines.   What this means is that we can actually change our moods.

 

Do you have experiential understanding of this?

Through hisbodidus,

Through recognition of Hashem as One,

Through loving and having awe in the design of the world,

through choosing to associate our soul with Hashem’s love and mercy

through desiring to reveal His love and mercy.

We have souls created by Hashem with the potential to change our mood and add a pleasurable quality to our lives that affect  others in our lives at the same time as well as having a positive influence on the world.

 

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How can we get our bearings when upset and take that crucial first step towards mindfulness?

When something triggers us, what actually is happening and how can we get our bearings?

 

Imagine a scene.  Someone says something and it is insulting, accusing, disrespectful or whatever we perceive.  Perhaps they raised their voice.  Perhaps they overlooked something kind we did.  There are as many scenarios as there are people times seconds in a day.

 

Our hearts leap.  We feel unsteady.  We don’t know what exactly we feel but we are ready and set to say SOMETHING.

 

Let’s slow motion this reaction.  Our hearts leap.  Something in our heart recognized something in what was said in a way that is painful.

 

As soon as the power of that reaction is present, we immediately begin to search for a judgment or an explanation that makes sense.  Yet what is going to make sense to us is what we find from our past experiences much more often than what is actually the truth of what has happened.

For example, someone can say “no,” without really explaining and we supply an interpretation to that “no” that may not be true. It is likely that our interpretation might be a fulfilling of a false belief about ourselves.  We experience it as real.  And even if we check it out and we are given a different explanation, we have still reinforced in our hearts’ experiences an association between those false beliefs and the “no.”

It is like looking up a word in the dictionary to see if it is a word to find that it is not a word, but not remembering the next time that it is not a word.  We remember we looked it up.  We don’t remember whether it was a word or not.  The truth escapes our memory in favor of our hopes or fears.

 

Our reaction has now placed us in a feeling experience and it is happening in our bodies.  Whether or not it actually happened as we imagine does not change that we are experiencing it.  It is truly happening in our physical makeup.

 

Let’s say we intellectually know that it is not happening.  Even then, our physicality can experience it as true.  What is going on?

 

There is a battle going on in our subconscious mind.  Is the reaction based on our pattern of beliefs of being an autonomous, independent physical being ruling our hearts?  Or is our heart ruled by Hashem, the King?

 

If we can stop and take a breath and ask ourselves this important question – who is king over my heart, my self-consciousness or Hashem – then that is the beginning of mindfulness.

 

We then have the option of choosing to submit to Hashem. That is, if we have not already reacted and said the hurtful retort that our self-conscious thinking naturally feels and suggests.

 

The power of our experience is a part of our soul, a Divine energy, the creative flow, compassion, that is hidden within a falsehood.  The task is to bring that compassion from where it is buried to be revealed.

Do we take the time to examine and understand our patterns to find our false beliefs and patterns so that we are able to see them as such and not as our essence?

 

Do we truly yearn to experience the greatest pleasure a person can experience, which is the pleasure of relationship with Hashem through emulating His love?

 

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Rav Dror – Finding the light within – Awakening yourself and others

A perspective on our meager and unique circumstances

When we feel adversity and challenge, when we are feeling a red alert, the reality of Hashem’s love and mercy is very far away.  It surely is not present in our natural reactions.  Consider that our neurology is like a cell phone “dead zone” for receiving the feeling of Hashem’s love and mercy when we experience lack and our defenses are triggered.

Yet it is there.  For us, it seems as though the lights went out.  Yet, are they?

Buried within our soul is the emunah to know that He is real and that we are one with Him.

How do we access it when the feelings and circumstances in a world of action are spinning us around?

Being able to exercise that emunah is what gives us a  new perspective on the meaning of our lives. To the degree we can “live” in a mindfulness that has an objective understanding of Hashem, His Torah and His Nation, the way we feel and act when struck with a traffic jam of feelings is affected.

How may we affect ourselves by keeping focused on Hashem, Torah and being His People?

Hashem, Torah and His Nation are One.

He is all compassion.

He places our soul in an amazing body that has built in interference.

All we hear naturally is the noise.

This is how He gives us real free will.

We use real free will to make choices that invest us in being connected to His Oneness.

Choices to connect in relationship while we are alive in a world where Hashem is concealed have eternal benefit.

Hashem loves us at every moment, even when we feel lost, rejected, stricken and more.

With emunah, when we hear the noise, we can activate our bina, our intellect, and remember the wisdom of Torah,  that Hashem is One and His Love has never broken.

The goal is to hold our “ship” steady as we go through the turbulence. By holding the wisdom of Torah with our understanding and intellect, knowing Hashem is good, we can get through.

How do we go through?

The spark “Hashem is One” takes root through our holding steady with love for Hashem and our trust that Divine energy, the creative force, is compassion.

Hashem only does good.

That includes us.  Even though we have terrifically challenging feelings and circumstances, and even though we are prone to error by being egoistic and self-focused, we are essentially good because Hashem is creating us every moment.  We may have room to improve, but our essential goodness is real.

The challenge is to bond our goodness back to its source, which means dissolving our bond with self-consciousness.

We choose to do two more of the constant mitzvahs.  Love Hashem.  Fear (have awe in the design  with which Hashem gives us a lifetime) Hashem.

These two mitzvahs open the channel of connection through which we can take what seems upside down in our heart and bring the compassion animating it from the interference through to the other side of the “prism” of our neurology.

When we stay focused on bringing into our hearts Hashem’s constant love and mercy, we remain consciously connected,  even if it seems like that connection is like our cell phones with only “a bar” of connection.  Through that connection, that pinhole, so much more can flow.

Having  emunah in Hashem and His Oneness is important.

Understanding our role in declaring His Oneness  is important.

Having the Torah learning of our forefathers so that we recognize our natural condition and what to avoid is important.

Accepting our neurological condition of “sad, mad, bad” in all its iterations helps us see the interference Hashem creates in order to give us real free will. Through hisbodidus, we can familiarize ourselves with  our most common interpretations that lead us to err.

Instead of thinking we are stuck in being the enactment of sad, mad, bad, we can grow to have the wisdom to see a spiritually powerful role that we may play in bringing together what appears as two different types of compassion into one.

What are the seemingly two types of compassion?  The natural compassion and empathy that helps us navigate the traffic jam thinking within the plane of the material and physical world is one. The underlying universal compassion that is the soul of every atom of creation is the second .

It is easy to see how these are not separate at all. Rather the first one is a subset of the second.

When we continue to have an ache in our heart, the mistake is to think that we have accomplished our full mission with the  compassion that helps us travel through the traffic of the interference, the compassion that essentially utilizes kindness and empathy and understanding of human nature to maneuver gently around the obstacles or people causing interference. Torah gives us instruction in this regard, and that is full of compassion.  While this may be considerate and important, and even powerful, it does not in every case perform the function of declaring Hashem’s Oneness if we carry pain. When we follow the Torah but carry pain within there is more we are capable to do in the declaring of Hashem Echad and returning compassion concealed by our nature to its Source.

What more can we do?

We may utilize our emunah in order to come to see the entire traffic jam as having a hidden compassion that is giving us the opportunity of using our lifetime (our natural frame of reference) to declare Hashem Echad.  That is a perspective on our meager and unique circumstances, no matter how painful, that distills from the interference the hidden compassion and returns it to its Source through our mindfulness and prayers. This is the teshuva that then brings to our hearts the feeling of Hashem’s love and mercy. This is the teshuva that brings us the pleasure for which we are designed. This is the teshuva that creates positive influence.  This is the teshuva that we are capable of.

If this type of work interests you, women are invited to join us in sharing our journey to deepen our emunah and mindfulness.

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The ideas that spoken about on this blog are often benefited by sharing with others. This would be a sharing group, an opportunity to connect with likeminded people working to grow in emunah and bringing it to heart.  If anyone is interested in sharing their emunah journey, please email me at shulikleinman@beyondanydoubts.com

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Self-acceptance -Healing your Past Rav Dror

Here is the transcript as provided automatically on YouTube…there are errors…better to listen…but the time stamps are on there so if there is something that peaks your interest you can scroll on the video to that minute.

 

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hi this is the wrong shutter suto thanks
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for watching please remember to
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subscribe and like this video people are
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facing big challenges we know that but
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there is a main problem and main
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difficulty that people are dealing with
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and it’s the self blame people are
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criticizing themselves badly being very
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very hard than themselves and falling
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because of that – a lot of sadness and
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too many bad places now the fact that
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it’s not good that it doesn’t bring the
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personal worth that it doesn’t help
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that’s obvious everyone can see that but
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the main problem is that people falling
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in the trap of that kind of Yetzirah to
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hate themselves and to blame themselves
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while trying to serve the creator it’s
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just a regular person on the street
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he’s got complaints on himself it’s one
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thing because he’s not claiming to do
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something special not that we don’t want
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him to be healthy happy or strong or
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whatever we do but the mistake is not as
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big and hard as the mistake of a person
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that claims to be a servant of the
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creator and why because when a person
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claims to serve Hashem so he claims to
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be connected to the truth or at least to
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try express his inner wheel of trying to
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attach and connect himself to the truth
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to the God of truth to the Creator
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now while blaming yourself and hating
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yourself and criticizing yourself you
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are separating yourself from the truth
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and by that separating yourself from the
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Creator because when you’re blaming
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yourself and following that kind of
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advice you are wrong and you’re lying to
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yourself that’s why we’re gonna try to
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understand tonight
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how come it’s so wrong and what is so
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bad in it
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we know that the creator he gave us a
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holy soul and the holy soul that we
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received from heaven is a soul that is
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godly and godliness is all pure and all
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good because it’s the light of the
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creator himself now to speak bad things
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and to think bad thoughts about his
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light this is something that for sure we
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cannot do now when we as Holy Souls
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finding ourselves falling and failing
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and making mistakes in our physical body
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we must understand that the reason for
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those failures and those mistakes is not
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coming from the positive side from the
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spiritual side of our souls those
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failures are coming from the physical
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side of our bodies of the vehicles of
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the prison of our souls
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now when you judging yourself as a
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physical body you’re wrong
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because your body is your vehicle and
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it’s not who you are who you are is the
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soul and it’s not that you have a soul
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you are a soul that’s your real being a
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soul a spiritual soul the neshamah
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allocated that we have this is the
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essence of our being and that’s who we
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really are
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now when you judge a person by his shape
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by his color by his accent you don’t
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give him a chance
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why because you immediately judged him
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based on something that just helps him
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to travel to walk to communicate and not
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by his deeds not by his actions not by
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his real being who really is you’re just
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judging him because of the community
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it is part of the religion that is part
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of an family that is part of but who
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that he is you never checked so for sure
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that no matter what you’re going to say
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if it will be bad about that person it
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would be wrong because you’re not aiming
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to the source of that person to the real
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essence of that person who really is you
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don’t know you never met him because you
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stopped at his car and his jacket at the
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color of his face color of his eyes or
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his accent and you never felt him you
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never met him actually now when you’re
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doing the same against yourself and
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judging yourself based on your actions
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on your failures you never meet yourself
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and you don’t know who you are
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and you’re wrong and basically you are
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trapped in that trap of lie that the
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evil inclination put for you and you
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misinterpret your actions and by that
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losing your connection to the Creator
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now the solution for that is to do tuva
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now what it means to do Trueba I said it
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many times but it’s important to repeat
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if now they’re gonna be a big rabbi
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that’s gonna give a lecture and in his
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lecture he’s gonna say my voice I
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everyone needs to make Chava thousands
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of people will heal that election I’m
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asking you how many of the people every
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one are willing to do whatever that
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rabbi will tell them they all believe in
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him they love him they admire him they
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want to follow his advice now he said we
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all need to do Chava how many of those
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people will do trova I think no one why
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because no one will even understand
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and what it means to the Trueba one will
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decide you know what I need to wake up
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earlier in the morning and to catch the
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earliest minion second one will say I
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must accept her but earlier the third
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one will say I must keep all the Shu
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Hannibal another one will say I must
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learn more to add third one will say I
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hurt my wife I need to apologize so
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everyone will take something good out of
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that vote out of those words that that
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Rabbi said but the rabbi said that we
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need to do Chiva what does it mean to do
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chuhwa to do to rights not to keep
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Shabbat to do Chava it’s not to eat
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kosher to The True Vine doesn’t mean to
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go and apologize to someone those are
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other good things those are great things
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to keep Shabbat it’s wonderful to eat
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kosher it’s the best to apologize if you
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hurt someone or even to behave well or
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better it’s amazing that’s exactly what
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you need to do with your life but it’s
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not true Chava is a different obligation
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that got its own definition what you
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need to do when you do Trueba first of
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all you need to remember this scene the
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mistake itself and then you need to feel
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regret on that scene that’s how the
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Rambam
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the Rambam are Qaddafi explained to us
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in havana Rambam explained to us how we
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should do to be’ what it means to do to
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Vaughn in Hochevar the rules of Trueba
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by the rumba ROMs explanation to the
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Chava you need to remember the scene and
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you need to feel regret on doing it and
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then you need to go to a place that you
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will be able to speak to the creator not
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in front of people not in front of your
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rabbi not in front of your wife not in
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front of your best friend Chava is you
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in a shame you want to apologize to your
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friend that’s great it’s another thing
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it’s not your one you’re not doing true
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vine in front of your friends you’re
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apologizing to your friends great thing
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but it’s not chuva Chava is that you are
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coming back to Hashem how you come back
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to share you need to
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take that feeling of regret and that it
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will carry you to a quiet place that you
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will find the ability have the ability
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to speak to the Almighty and to stand in
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front of him or to sit
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it doesn’t written how you should stand
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but while standing alone in front of the
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Creator what did you need to do is to
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tell him exactly what did you’ve done
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and you cannot complete your chuva until
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you will confess so if you did something
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wrong to your friend let’s say that you
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were working in sales and you saw an
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amazing deal and it was belong to your
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friend and you made everything you could
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to take that deal from him and now you
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sign that deal behind his back and you
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know it and he you made sure will never
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gonna know that no problems with him in
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this world but in the world to come we
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don’t know what’s gonna happen and also
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that the Creator is so kind and sweet
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that he for sure gonna wake up some
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judgments that we will do chuma and come
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back to him also in this world so now
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you know that you did something wrong
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signing that deal behind the back of
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your friend what do you need to do with
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that mistake you need to take that
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feeling of regret to go to a quiet place
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and to confess first step with in front
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of the Creator tell him your heart
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listen a shame I had an issue I didn’t
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know how I’m finishing the month and
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suddenly I had that deal and I thought
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that it was mine and I had another
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thought that maybe I was wrong but in
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the end I was too weak and
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a nation that’s a lot overpowered and
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tricked me and I failed and I’m sorry
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I’m sorry I took that amount of money
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from my friend I was not supposed to do
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that please give me the power not to do
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that again now you finish the spiritual
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part of your tuba first step of your
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tuba in front of a shame was that now
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I’m asking you when that rabbi will
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speak in his lecture I’m gonna tell
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everyone we must do chuva who’s gonna go
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and do chuva we’re gonna go and keep
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mitzvot Tituba of the Rambam because if
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you can ask yourself okay you know what
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I wanna do tuba let’s start so now you
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need to confess on all your mistakes and
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on all of your failures that’s a big big
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mission a big operation are you gonna do
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that you woke up in the morning and you
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didn’t ran to wash your hands in a cup
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with a cup okay and the cop was not that
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little mote from your bed and you
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touched your eye and you touched your
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nose and you touched your ear and then
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when you said they were hot you didn’t
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brush your teeth before saying they were
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hot if you said the word hold on every
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mistake on every failure you have the
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conversation you need to go to a quiet
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place to stand in front of the king of
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all kings and start opening your heart
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and telling listen that’s not the way to
12:29
wake up in the morning and I’m sorry I
12:32
didn’t wash my hands I didn’t brush my
12:34
mouth and my teeth I didn’t say they
12:38
were hot with the right intention I
12:40
thought they are not even sure I said
12:42
all they were hot or not and you need to
12:44
talk about those things now it’s it’s a
12:48
project it’s a project so the main
12:53
advice is that every person will find at
12:57
least for a beginning a certain quiet
12:59
time in his day and in that time he will
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start his chuva process to start opening
13:07
your heart in front of king of all kings
13:10
and start sharing
13:11
and telling him your regret your
13:15
feelings your heart and when you will do
13:18
that something spiritual and beautiful
13:21
and amazing will happen to you
13:23
and it’s well connected to what they
13:27
said before you will stop blaming
13:30
yourself how come what’s the connection
13:34
when a person is sinning what did he is
13:38
creating by his sins and crimes are
13:41
husks and those husks are blocking the
13:46
light of the Creator from him when
13:49
you’re doing something wrong you’re
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giving strength and power to the
13:54
physical aspect of this world instead of
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connecting yourself through faith and
14:00
trust in the Creator to him because in
14:05
which you sinned let’s say in money
14:07
because you thought that money means
14:10
something more than justice more than
14:14
loyalty more than faith your connection
14:18
to a ship so you chose physicality over
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Hashem so because of your free choice
14:25
they chose money you cannot see Hashem
14:29
anymore because money is blocking the
14:31
way you looked at someone that you
14:34
thought to yourself that she is a
14:36
beautiful woman
14:37
even though that she was a ghost from
14:40
Hell that came to fail the person now
14:42
you as that person failed in a woman in
14:47
a bad eyesight so now you felt that was
14:52
your thought that was the reason for
14:55
your failure that you will find more
14:57
satisfaction and joy and happiness and
15:01
in the shape of the woman instead of
15:03
their creator
15:05
instead of faith instead of learning to
15:09
iron holy issues of to connect you to
15:12
the Creator now you found yourself
15:15
choosing something physical over a sham
15:19
so you now as a result of your free
15:23
choice that failed in lust or desire of
15:27
all options of physical world you by
15:32
doing that blocked the light of the
15:35
Creator from yourself and you cannot see
15:38
him now when you don’t see him so the
15:42
darkness got more control on you if you
15:45
put some physical thing in front of the
15:48
light and now the light cannot
15:50
illuminate through that thing because of
15:53
its thickness because of its shape and
15:56
weight and size and colors physical
15:59
aspect of it you cannot see the light
16:01
and this is an obstacle for you and you
16:05
have that obstacle in your life until
16:08
you will remove it how you will remove
16:12
it when you will do truven now when you
16:16
are not removing those obstacles when
16:19
you’re not doing chuhwa you finding
16:23
yourself falling and failing in those
16:26
obstacles in those traps that you put
16:29
for yourself before you sing one time
16:33
with your friend in an issue that man is
16:37
involved now you have that thing on your
16:41
back on your chest something is chasing
16:43
you now every time you will speak with
16:46
that person you will suspect because you
16:49
will be cautious you need to check that
16:53
he doesn’t know so you’re gonna fail in
16:57
more things he will ask you hey you
16:59
remember that client and you remember
17:02
that client that was exactly the client
17:04
that you signed the deal with but
17:06
because you don’t want even to discuss
17:09
and you don’t
17:10
team even to suspect you’ll tell you
17:11
which clients not and who are you
17:14
talking and he will tell you that guy
17:15
with a red cap than the guy with a with
17:18
a Porsche that guy that lives in the
17:20
other block and who are you talking and
17:23
you’re failing and falling in the trap
17:27
of evil inclination to keep on lying and
17:30
one sin drags the next and the next
17:33
drags the third and third brings you to
17:35
the fourth and you become a liar and you
17:38
are lying only because you have not
17:41
removed that obstacle from your way how
17:46
you’re gonna remove that obstacle from
17:49
your way by doing chuhwa by confessing
17:53
to the creator expressing your heart
17:55
telling your feelings and apologizing to
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him and asking from him to give you
18:01
power and strength to ruse to stand up
18:05
back on your feet never to fit in that
18:07
thing anymore not to be scared from the
18:09
things that scared you and brought you
18:12
to that failure and what will happen as
18:15
a result of you not doing java you will
18:19
hate yourself and you will blame
18:21
yourself
18:21
because your life will look miserable
18:24
you’re gonna feel sorrow because you
18:26
must lie to everyone and you must hide
18:29
from everyone and you embarrass that
18:31
people will see you and you don’t know
18:33
how to express yourself and you don’t
18:34
feel comfortable with yourself only
18:36
because that you have not completed your
18:39
chuhwa but when you will complete your
18:43
true ver or at least will start your
18:45
real Trueba process not becoming more
18:48
religious just confronting your fears
18:51
and opening your heart and telling the
18:55
truth to yourself and to the Creator by
18:58
that you will remove one obstacle after
19:01
the next one husk after the next until
19:05
the light of the Creator will shine upon
19:07
you in a way that only joy and happiness
19:11
and satisfaction will fill your being
19:14
and will wrap you and sir
19:17
around you from outside and you will
19:20
feel no I’m ashamed the pleasant of
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Hashem and only because of doing Chava
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now when a person is blaming himself he
19:29
is failing again he is failing in that
19:32
trap of the evil inclination to lose
19:35
hope and to lose the connection with the
19:39
creator because the Creator is available
19:42
in every moment of our life to help us
19:45
to start a new page to open the gates of
19:49
chuva for us this is something that
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Hashem is willing to do now when a
19:53
person will take that decision and will
19:56
work on himself to become that real bad
19:59
Chava to confess on his mistakes and to
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go to the creator and to see the truth
20:05
Hashem I am weak a shame I have issues a
20:08
shame I’m scared a shame I don’t have
20:11
confidence in you Hashem I don’t know
20:12
how to what to do I have that issue and
20:15
that issue if you are not doing that you
20:19
live life of sorrow and when you do that
20:22
you remove every stone and every every
20:26
weight from your chest until your life
20:28
becomes better and better and you become
20:30
much more positive about yourself
20:33
judging yourself favourably giving
20:35
yourself a chance and by that also
20:38
giving the opportunity to other people
20:41
to do true vine to come back to the
20:43
Creator while learning from you and you
20:47
become a role model for them they can
20:49
look at you and to see exactly how a
20:52
real believer acts because all the
20:56
righteous people failed all of them even
21:00
a demolish on the first man the most
21:03
holiest soul he sinned King David he
21:06
made a mistake
21:08
Abraham Isaac Jacob surah we’ve got a
21:11
hella all of them they made mistakes and
21:14
the Torah is rebuking them that was
21:17
showing to us the failures of our
21:19
ancestors in the holy book Lakota Mohan
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it’s written that Moses failed five
21:25
times in
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his lifetime in anger he failed five
21:29
times he was upset five times and he did
21:33
Shiva and they those righteous people
21:36
they did Shiva they did you fun they
21:40
found an inner power to come back to
21:42
Shem what is holding us back from that
21:45
from that joy from that satisfaction of
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cleaning ourselves only only and only
21:53
the sin of arrogance only the pride even
21:58
in front of yourself you feel that fear
22:02
and you feel that shame that is so huge
22:05
like who are you that it’s going to be
22:09
so important if you’re going to be
22:10
ashamed it’s okay to be ashamed if you
22:14
messed up it’s the most noble thing in
22:17
the world that you will come and admit
22:19
and say I was wrong how pathetic and
22:23
filth it is when a person is sinning and
22:26
doing something corrupt something wrong
22:28
and justifying himself like you haven’t
22:31
done anything in the world at all
22:33
nothing why can’t you eat meat children
22:37
are coming to their parents after 20
22:39
years trying to talk to them something
22:40
happened between us but you hurt me no
22:43
don’t talk to me like that you look at
22:46
that parent and you don’t know what to
22:48
do with him it’s not like what’s going
22:51
on with you can’t you say I’m sorry
22:54
can’t you say I love you can’t you
22:55
apologize ken what’s the problem you’re
22:59
losing your humanity
23:01
your touch your your sensitivity you’re
23:04
losing all the qualities of your soul
23:06
when you are chasing after your own
23:09
honor while blaming other people for
23:12
your own failures that’s such a low
23:15
level of human being of a person and we
23:19
cannot allow ourselves to to act like
23:22
that
23:23
we must do whatever we can to reveal the
23:27
light of the Creator
23:28
now which gift is greater than that gift
23:33
of Truvada the creator gave us that it’s
23:35
written that a messiah cannot be
23:38
redeemed through nothing else except of
23:41
chuva and when they are doing shiva
23:44
immediately they’re being redeemed the
23:46
only thing that the Shem is waiting for
23:49
us to do is Shiva now like we said true
23:52
bond is not to wake up earlier in the
23:53
morning Shiva is not to – wash your
23:56
hands with a cup and that the water will
23:58
be covered those are different
23:59
obligation different meats vote from the
24:02
tava you want to do it great you’re
24:04
obligated and you feel connected great
24:07
nobody’s stopping you from doing
24:09
whatever you can do as much as you can
24:12
but Yuva it’s to come back to share what
24:16
it means to come back to a share to come
24:18
back to a sham is not to give power to
24:22
the money not to give power to the grace
24:26
and beauty of life it’s not to give
24:29
power to to physical aspects of life and
24:34
to rise all the power and all the
24:38
praises and all the joy and satisfaction
24:40
to the king of all kings to praise him
24:43
to remember that he is the one that
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supports us that he is the one that
24:47
satisfies us that he is that one that
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gives us wisdom and health and not the
24:52
doctors and all the teachers and even
24:55
not the rabbis you need to have
24:57
gratitude you need to respect everyone
25:00
but because that they
25:03
all outfits and coverings of the creator
25:06
himself so as a person with the way of
25:10
the land with the earth edits that knows
25:12
how to behave you have respect to every
25:15
particle of the creation and you respect
25:18
all human beings with no connection if
25:20
they are rabbis or if they’re not if
25:23
they’re Jewish or if they’re not if it’s
25:25
a man or if it’s a woman if is wealthy
25:27
of it
25:28
you’re just a respectful person that
25:32
respects everyone respects animals
25:35
respect nature respect peope one you
25:39
care about everyone you care about
25:41
people’s cars you care about people’s
25:44
properties because it’s theirs and you
25:46
respect the creation that the Creator
25:49
created and you as a person that goes to
25:52
respect the Creator that cares about the
25:55
name of a shame that wants us to be
25:57
happy and satisfied and
25:59
and-and-and-and-and glad with his
26:01
children and and proud of us you go and
26:05
acting nicely you go and and behaving
26:09
nice and that’s the real mission of us
26:12
to go and to spread the light of the
26:14
Creator in the world in a positive way
26:17
when we’re saying that I shall make a
26:21
bet Smith Hey Amoy so L he gathers all
26:24
the people that been rejected and he’s
26:28
collecting them and bringing them all
26:30
together
26:31
she Lloyd are women only da who that
26:33
there will be no one left behind the
26:36
first letters of Mecca Beth Smith family
26:38
so L births the word Naomi Naomi she is
26:45
the woman that was the role model for
26:49
Goethe Marva to convert because she was
26:55
such a nice woman such a nice lady she
26:59
was so polite and
27:01
good and so kind that when would that
27:04
she was mafia saw her she saw Naomi that
27:09
she’s such an amazing woman she said to
27:12
herself I must follow her and she was
27:16
the daughter of the king over there in
27:19
Martha and she dropped her kingship
27:22
she dropped all of her connection to
27:24
royalty and she followed Naomi
27:28
and she followed now me and she said to
27:31
know me no matter where you will go I’ll
27:33
follow you
27:34
your God is my god your religion is my
27:37
religion
27:37
only because Naomi was so pleasant like
27:42
the meaning of the word Naomi no me
27:44
comes the word Naomi the name no me is
27:48
coming from the word norm norm is
27:51
pleasant its joy its satisfaction it’s
27:54
an aspect of pleasure and that is the
27:57
way to bring people to convert to wake
28:00
up the souls of those ones they’ve been
28:02
rejected to bring them back to a shame
28:05
by showing them the pleasant of a shame
28:09
showing to them how joyful it is to
28:13
serve and to be Jewish not by rebuking
28:16
not by judging not by criticizing it
28:19
everyone and having opinions and and and
28:23
slaughtering and blaming you cannot
28:26
bring people to the truth while
28:29
executing them and blaming them and
28:32
judging them and being hard on them they
28:34
won’t find the power and the energy to
28:37
come and also us all the people that
28:40
been educated in religious education or
28:43
grew up in religious houses or found
28:47
Hashem and tried to learn we saw what
28:49
was bringing us closer to a shame and
28:51
what rejected us the rebukes and the
28:55
shames and the insulting has never built
28:57
us never gave us no inspiration and no
29:00
power to do more in a
29:03
– and try to serve Hashem the opposite
29:06
it rejected us it broke our spirits it
29:10
rejected and pushed us to despair and to
29:14
sadness to lose the essence of our lives
29:17
to lose the happiness and the joy that
29:20
vitam it’s about the satisfaction and
29:22
pleasure of keeping to our home it’s
29:25
about it been destroyed for us so if
29:28
he’d been destroyed for us we’re not
29:30
allowed to destroy to others we must
29:33
represent the Creator by his guiding
29:36
lines by his only desire that we’re all
29:39
going to be friends of each other that
29:41
we’re all gonna appreciate and love and
29:44
respect and honor each other can show
29:46
his generosity and his kindness and his
29:49
love acting in his good attributes
29:53
become like him as much as you can to
29:56
show and to shine the light of our holy
29:59
souls that are shining from within so we
30:03
must stop criticizing ourselves because
30:06
while criticizing ourselves and being
30:09
judgemental we are destroying the world
30:12
we’re destroying our beloved ones
30:15
because as long as your heart and
30:18
yourself you won’t find the ability to
30:20
judge other people favorably it’s not an
30:23
option if you hate yourself you’re gonna
30:25
hate people the verse is saying where I
30:27
have tell about how come Oh hon you
30:29
should love your friend like you love
30:31
yourself why because you’re not able to
30:34
love him when you hate yourself you
30:37
should love him as much as you love
30:38
yourself so now if you hate yourself you
30:40
can’t love him you hate him he’s the one
30:43
to blame
30:44
why because you suffer but if you will
30:47
work on yourself to recognize the good
30:51
inside of yourself to find the real you
30:54
to find the positive and eNOS
30:57
and light of your soul that sweet
31:00
adorable child of yours ooh that you are
31:03
and to let it shine to let it be to
31:07
express it to let him feel to let
31:10
yourself feel to let yourself be that
31:13
naive kid that you are being friendly
31:16
and smiling to people and and and and
31:20
and and looking for reasons to to be
31:22
glad and happy and and and and just
31:25
wanting to be good that’s who we really
31:28
are now because that we’ve been hurt so
31:32
many times being insulted being judged
31:35
being criticized so many times we lost
31:38
track to our real being and today we
31:41
don’t know who we are you look at the
31:42
mirror and you think to yourself oh
31:44
you’re such a failure oh you’re such a
31:46
destruction you’re such a worthless is
31:50
so cool you’re so I believe you’re
31:52
you’re stupid you’re dumb you every
31:55
moment you make up another election of
31:57
our bad think about yourself bad comment
31:59
about yourself and all of those all of
32:01
those things are lies you’re talking
32:06
about the creation of a shame so what in
32:08
the world you think to yourself who can
32:10
you who are you that you think that you
32:12
can judge can you say on the art of the
32:16
Creator that it’s ugly that it’s stupid
32:19
that it’s pathetic that it’s worthless
32:22
you are a creation of the Creator
32:25
exactly like the time if you’re gonna go
32:28
and start talking leshawna now about me
32:30
it will be aligned I didn’t do anything
32:33
bad to you what do you want from me that
32:35
you’re gonna go and open your filthy
32:37
mouths on me I haven’t done anything and
32:39
I’m telling you that exactly from the
32:41
opposite angle if I’m gonna open my
32:44
mouth and say horrible things about you
32:47
I’m gonna be as evil I’m gonna be as
32:50
liar it won’t be the truth because
32:54
you’re a handmaid of the creator he’s
32:57
got his seal on your hand your soul is
33:01
the godly soul if I accept it and if I
33:03
don’t if I say it and if I don’t if I
33:06
want to accept
33:07
that if I don’t who cares about me when
33:10
SM made you now if I cannot say anything
33:13
bad about you because your hand made of
33:16
a sham exactly like that you cannot go
33:18
and open your mouth about me because I’m
33:20
a creation of a sham I didn’t do
33:22
anything bad to you that you’re gonna
33:24
warn other people for we’re not talking
33:26
about an evil person that person is a
33:29
murderer okay we need to stop him from
33:31
killing that’s not the genre but just to
33:34
say on him a lazy how ugly are they
33:37
stupid are worthless
33:39
that’s leshawna those are empty things
33:42
that you might say on a third person
33:45
you’re not allowed to do that because
33:47
who you are to judge him and already
33:50
coming to conclusion finished dissecting
33:53
him completely measuring him knowing
33:56
that in the secret of his creation he’s
33:59
the filthy human being who are you who
34:01
you think you are to come with those
34:03
lies it’s a lie so you’re not allowed to
34:08
do that on him and I’m not allowed to do
34:10
it on you so you cannot also do that on
34:14
yourself you’re not allowed to because
34:17
the truth is that you don’t know who you
34:20
are you don’t know you are do you know
34:23
the potential of your soul do you know
34:26
how important and great you are in hinds
34:28
of a sham do you know how many righteous
34:30
people are defending you in heaven and
34:33
saying no I see heed goodness
34:36
I see his greatness I see qualities
34:38
inside of him he’s a real bad Shiva he’s
34:41
the holy person he’s an amazing soul do
34:44
you know now when you are arguing with
34:47
them you’re destroying all their work of
34:50
judging you favorably and opening for
34:52
you gates of Java that grace will be on
34:55
the scale for you to bring you closer to
34:57
a share and you by filth in your mouth
35:00
even on yourself destroying all of their
35:04
word
35:04
four years of your bond years and the
35:08
problem is that really you don’t know
35:10
who you are so you just making up
35:13
nonsense on yourself and you’re
35:15
separating by that criticism yourself
35:17
from the Almighty because he really made
35:20
you and he really loves you and he
35:22
really choosing you to give you life on
35:25
daily basis and he feeds you and he
35:28
dresses you and he covers you and he
35:30
protects you from germs and from viruses
35:34
and from all kinds of planes and
35:36
illnesses and weaknesses and you’re not
35:38
starving thank God most of us are
35:40
overweight and a sham is nice most of us
35:44
they say some of us needs to eat but
35:47
most of us are overweight and a sham
35:50
takes care of us and we’re sleeping
35:53
again we’re eating and we’re talking and
35:56
we’re complaining on our debts to a
35:57
$1,000 iphone and everything is good
36:00
Hashem thank God
36:02
Hashem is with us so if a sham is
36:05
choosing you to spend time with you to
36:07
open your heart and to open your mind
36:10
and to teach you some wisdom and to
36:12
guide you and to connect you to
36:14
righteous peoples and to give you many
36:17
many wonderful things and experiences in
36:19
life to see so many sunsets and sunrises
36:23
and visiting in such beautiful places
36:26
visiting in the holy land I’ve been to
36:28
Jerusalem I was standing in the Western
36:30
Wall I said takuna Crawley
36:32
I said Tillie did he say amazing life
36:36
experiences wonderful things that other
36:39
people would envious at you with jealous
36:42
would just want to replace with you you
36:45
think that you have issues you know how
36:48
other people are suffering there are
36:50
people that are in such horrible
36:51
conditions such as such horrible
36:55
poverty’s and
36:57
and weaknesses that that cannot even
36:59
described in words were so lucky every
37:03
one of us and I’m talking on everyone
37:06
everyone are lucky because the creator
37:09
reveals his loving-kindness on all of us
37:12
being away and if he chose to reveal his
37:15
loving-kindness on you who are you to
37:18
cut that line who are you to contradict
37:20
that wisdom of the creator so by being
37:25
judgmental on yourself and blaming
37:27
yourself you are blocking yourself from
37:30
coming back to the Creator because
37:34
you’re giving strength and power to the
37:36
obstacles that those are the sins that
37:39
those are the curtains that are blocking
37:41
the light of the creator from you and by
37:44
that you are strengthening them
37:46
stabilizing them helping them to stand
37:49
and to keep on blocking the light of the
37:51
Creator that is the light of Mercy light
37:55
of compassion light of hope so that’s
38:00
why we need to have at least half an
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hour 20 minutes 15 minutes of an honest
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conversation with the Creator
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on daily basis in your back yard in your
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front lawn in your office in your car
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while their condition is on alone in
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your room under the blanket before you
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go to sleep it doesn’t matter and in
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that quiet moment that you have opened
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your heart with honesty and just be
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sincere and say to a share I’m sorry can
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you help me I messed up today I did
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something wrong I apologize give me a
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hand
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give me strength
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I need help not to cheat my friends not
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to lie my parents not to betrayed my
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wife not to destroy my kids not to ruin
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my self-esteem I’m destroying myself a
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shame help me not to hurt myself not to
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judge myself not to hate myself for no
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reason I’m blaming myself on being a
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vehicle when I’m a holy soul I once
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touched
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well open my door the door of another
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person’s car and she came out of the car
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with such blessings to me like I don’t
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know what I’ve done I didn’t do anything
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to her come my door just touched her
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door I can understand that let’s say for
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an example we’re talking about the very
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poor woman that it was the first cow of
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her life and she bought that car after
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saving for years and years whatever okay
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I understand her attachment and her
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desire to keep her caller complete I can
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understand it but it’s crazy it doesn’t
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say that it’s not crazy to be so
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attached to your car that if someone
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scratched your car that’s it just crazy
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you just think oh nothing happened
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really to you something happened to you
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nothing happened so nothing happened
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really nothing happened now when you are
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attached to your body to to your
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physicality you’re just acting crazy
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because you are a soul and as a soul you
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must remember that you are a soul like
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that as a driver you need to remember
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that you’re in the driver and not the
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vehicle another car you are the driver
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of your being and you’re not your physic
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you’re not your shape and you’re not
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your weight and you’re not your height
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and you’re not your measurements and
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you’re not your size and you’re not your
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color
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and you are not fat you have fat but
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you’re not fat
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you also have fingernails but you’re not
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the fingernail you’re a soul and as a
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soul you need to be positive you need to
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smile you need to express the good that
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been treasured by the Creator inside of
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you and to go with that good and share
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it but other people accept themselves as
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well but other people learn from you how
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to find good inside of themselves and to
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share that good to allow yourself to use
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the gifts they’ve been given to you by
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the Creator he gave you talents he gave
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you abilities he gave you power you need
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to use that power for that noble purpose
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of making everyone know and aware to the
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existence of the Creator in their lives
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and the Creator is a good God is a kind
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and merciful God is not a cruel leader
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with a leash his father of mercy his
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kind and loving and generous and we must
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find that light inside of ourselves that
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we will be good messengers to share and
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spread that light to our beloved ones if
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you still cannot recognize the light of
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the Creator inside of you you cannot go
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and sell it to others only when you will
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find him within you will find the
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ability and the knowledge how to express
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it and how to share
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and how to sell it and how to provide it
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to others the mission starts with
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ourselves that we will find him inside
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of ourselves that we will find
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compassion and love and patience inside
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of ourselves thank you very much
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bless us all from heaven in much
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happiness that all of our prayers will
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be answered immediately that we will
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believe in the power of the Creator to
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make wonders in our lives and that the
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Creator will blow the shofar to redeemed
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us from all of our sins that wonders
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Rav Ephraim Kenig on nullifying the physicality of self

http://shiratdevorah.blogspot.com/2018/06/the-obstructing-shadow.html

by Rav Ephraim Kenig shlita

 

 

”Every lack a person experiences, whether children, livelihood, or health, comes from oneself.” [1]  [Rebbe Nachman of Breslov]

 

There is an old saying: “The One Who gives life will also provide for it.” In other words, since G-d created the world, He most certainly provides whatever we need to exist, whether livelihood, children, health, etc. As discussed in the writings of the Arizal and many other holy books, He created the universe to bestow good on it, not so it should be lacking.

 

If this is true, when why do we need to exert ourselves so much in order to subsist?  An animal usually has everything it needs in its local environment. Why would it be different for a human being, who is considered the choice of creation?

 

This is Rebbe Nachman’s point. The lack is not inherent in creation – it comes from oneself. The human being was created perfect and complete [2], but something happened that created lack and deficiency.  For example, when a baby is born, the parents hover over the infant to ensure that it is warm, well-fed, and has everything it needs. As the child grows and begins to develop its own ideas and direction in life, the parents still desire to bestow good on the child. Sometimes, the child goes out on their own and acts foolishly without realizing the damage caused to themselves and others. The parents still worry, and do their best to warn the child of the various dangers, even when he or she stubbornly persists in pursuing their own ideas.

 

Likewise with Hashem. As mature as we consider ourselves, we still possess only a child-like understanding of the greatness of G-d. We don’t fully grasp the extent to which He wants to benefit us, and instead, we act like immature children who make trouble.  Divine light, called shefa, constantly flows to us. Descending through all of the upper worlds into this world, it arrives to fill any need we may have.  Shefa is very subtle in the heavens, and once it comes into the world, it manifests as a beneficial influence.  Just as parents desire good for their child, G-d’s love likewise directs the appropriate shefa to reach us in a ready-made fashion, like children, money, a home, etc.  The only thing that can stop it is the shadow created by our own actions. The shefa is then experienced as a deficiency.

 

 

How do our actions create a shadow?  The first thing to understand is that the nature of a shadow is relative, since a shadow is created from something more physical in relation to something more spiritual.  For example, a tree will create a shadow when put up against the light of the sun or moon.  The earth will also cause a shadow in the form of an eclipse, as will the moon itself.  Even the sun will create a shadow in relation to something  higher than it.  In this case, the sun would be considered physical in relation to what is above it.  Anything more physical obstructs light in relation to something more spiritual. Similarly, a person’s  physicality and undesirable deeds form a shadow that obstructs the flow of shefa, since something physical will block something more spiritual.

 

There is a way, according to Rebbe Nachman, to circumvent this problem. If you nullify yourself by minimizing your connection to the world, no shadow is created and shefa is received unhindered. It is normal to want to fill a place in the world, or to feel you possess something.  You enjoy the respect accorded to you by others, you consume, eat, drink and buy, all of which amounts to experiencing some sort of ”somethingness” that defines your material existence. The more physical you are, the more it prevents you from receiving the constantly flowing Divine light called shefa.

 

A basic understanding of human character traits can help a person move towards minimizing their connection to the world.  Let’s examine the trait of humility. Everyone is born with a specific predisposition and nature, with varying levels of coarseness or arrogance at one end of the spectrum, and qualities such as humility at the other end.  Each quality, though, needs to be expressed in the proper way and proportion.  For example, it is a natural and positive reaction to feel a sense of nullification or insignificance next to a greater person, not the opposite.

 

Likewise, we should feel our smallness in relation to Heaven. Our only desire should be to fulfill whatever role G-d gave us with self-nullification, which will naturally bring a tiny perception of G-d’s greatness.  Even if we are not currently on this level, it is something that needs to be deeply contemplated, since it is the true reality.

 

As creations of G-d, we belong to Him.  To the extent we comprehend this message and internalize it, our entire existence and relationship to the world will change.  As we go about our daily business, we will begin to understand that we are nothing more than messengers on a mission given to us by Hashem.  We will also be much less exacting of our own honor and care less about what others say or think about us. These concerns are exactly what make us more material.  Freed of these concerns, we are less physical. More shefa reaches us and we experience less deficiency and lack.

 

The world was created with such compassion, in a way that is truly good for us in this world and the next. Consider the generation of Noah and the Flood. How did this generation come to such depravity that it had to be completely wiped out?  The Midrash explains that this was actually caused by the abundant and awesome shefa they enjoyed on a constant basis.  They had everything they wanted, immediately, with incredible opulence, which is what brought them to such coarseness and vulgarity.  They believed the shefa came from their efforts and the strength of their own hands. They knew very well G-d was sending this goodness, but they didn’t believe He was the ultimate power behind sending it, or had the ability to halt it.  When Noah repeatedly warned them about the impending flood, they taunted ”Where will the flood come from, Heaven?” since they felt they could stop the Heavenly wellsprings themselves.  Although the good was indeed meant for them to enjoy, their way of thinking was a serious error because it overturned everything to the opposite.

 

Where are you holding?

You can actually sense where you stand before Hashem through evaluating your current situation, whatever it may be.  The very deficiency you experience is a gauge to how physical you are, since the perceived lack is a result of Divine light that has been blocked.  It is now expressed as a specific shortcoming, which indicates a lesser level of self-nullification to what Hashem desires