Shabbos chabura Jan 13
We are going through an indepth inner exploration not just from our successes but inwardly from our inner essence, our spiritual makeup, from the four elements of wind water fire and werath. that becomes the basis for our character traits that transforms our human expression into divine elements
We looked at fire for the basis for one’s higher divine wisdom, the character trait is humility or the negative form is arrogance. To work arrogance into humility we have to work on being mekabel. We spoke about mekablel shabbos. The timeperiod going into Shabbos is how we let go of the self in preparation to receive the pure potential..
Wind, we used alacrity, hurriedness, and the reality of movement as the basis for fixing that part of our ruach, as speech and other facets of wind.
Water, in the context of taanug, the importance of [hysical versus spiritual pleasure , that which separates verseus that which unites.
And afar, earth, afar going into the Shabbos,the shamor part of shabbos is to guard it. To cease doing melacha. The separation of doing melacha is the shamor part, is the part we detach from the spiritual harbor and go into the transcendant realm of zachor.
There is an opportunity to curtail or cease the Melachos in the context of kabbalos Shabbos. What is the real depth of the challenge. We spoke about alacrity, but there is something even more profound and grounded in a practical way.
If we go to fire, and we ask what is the core character trait, humily versus arrogance. In the mind’s eye, do we see ourselves as a physical earthly being or do we see ourselves fundamentally as a divine being. Then it migrates down to wind water and all the way down to earth.
That core conflict between self orientation versus divine essence reflecting Hashem is going to manifest itself at the level of earth
How does it come out? In all human relationships we want more than anything is that I truly matter to others and to be truly cared for. This is an expression of value and love. There are profound wisdoms there. Very simple earthly terms. When you strip all down, all the craziness and the fears down, we want to be valued or loved. But if it goes to our human orientation, then value and love are an expression of something external to us, an action, an accomplishment, something external that defines our value. and based on our perceived value from without, we think we should be loved.. Something that is external that we say defines our value.
Based on our perceived value from without, we think we should be loved based on our successes.
On the elokus side, if we break it down from wind water fire to earth, we still want value and love but it is intrinsic to my very being, to my inner elokus, my own elokus is Hashem’s divine presence rooted in my own personal divine essence. And the value in me is rooted back to Hashem. It is not tied to anything external.
This core conflict of value being defined inwardly or outwardly is the earthly expression of the conflict into Shabbos. When we know candlelighting is a certain time, and there is hurriedness, we can’t do anymore then, we can’t accomplish. So what is wrong with that/ if I don’t do then I am not something which means I am a nothing and won’t be cared for. Doing something, getting the desired outcome, the final expression of something being manifest in this world is bound to the ego if we say in the elements. Our ego is on the line. So when Hashem says no more melacha, stop. Uh oh if I can’t accomplish I can’t acquire and then I am not. That is the depth of the challenge of earth and my perceived sense of somethingness is that I am a nothing. And I don’t have value and love and guess I don’t really matter. If I can’t do anything creatively, what am I worth, and what am I?
After six days, stop. Enough of your own hyuman existence. And if wind water fire and earth that we do externally are the basis for our feeling loved and value, then the cessation of Melachos are a mini-death.And shabbos might feel painful – Hashem is everything and I am nothing. But when we bring fire through wind into water and into earth and manifest in this world in a tangible way, we stop melacha to say we are partnering in our toiling in our divine service, but in the end, I am not valued or loved based on what is external to me, that only manifests what is inside.. My real true divine identity can only be liberated and redeemed when it is not bound up with Melachos.
Once we get to the point when we accomplish this, when we light, it is a mini redemption because my internal essence is not bound up and cannot be liberated by the body, with that higher elokus we get on Shabbos. Hashem is hiding less on Shabbos and the grerater revelation is I can come to my divine ideinty and I can experience my core identity being bound up with Him, with His everythingness. I am nothing independent of Him. That is the understanding of afer, earth. Earth is about solid, stable, but what is stability tied to? If it is tied to externality, then we get to the counterfeit sense of nothingness. ..if it is tied to something external then the 39 melachos are counterfeit sense of nothingness. When we go to anava, humility on the level of fire all the way down to earth, we experience positive nothingness that creates a healthy space in which Hashem can now reveal Himself proportionally in you in that space of nothingness relative to during the week. we need healthy nothingness to experience Hashem’s everythingness.
In that we are truly something and that is where we find our core sense of value and love caught up in Hashem. That is our elokus brought down to afar. That is afar brought to earth. I am not caught up in self. That is the whole point of the melacha. create an elokus thing and subjugate the limited humanness. When we cease and desist the melacha from al lthe generals to specific, I am not independent existence, I am not truly autonomous, that allows Hashem’s everything to permeate us and our true somethingness can shine, as an expression of being bound up with Hashem’s realty. That is internalizing ein od. And that is what Shabbos is. That is what stopping the Melachos are. That is what we are doing, stopping creating.
What is the challenge? To challenge our false sense of self, that I am something to be reckoned with. We have to look deeply within. Where do we get our value In that place of groundedness, solid, in what we accomplish, go back to that innermost value to feel loved and is it coming from my actions. What are the net results, what truly is coming out. If I am defining myself, I am exposing a false sense of self. this way that is untrue. Our toiling, every week we are detaching from the physical reality of things, that is the reality of afar, and if we cannot let go, that is the overexaggerated sense of self, we think we are independence. That is the lethalness of afar . When humility and arrogance in fire comes into the level of earth in this way, that creates a sense of laziness, sadness, nervousness, and worry. All of that is expressed at the level of afar, it is worriness of the soul. It is nervousness of the soul.
That is the element of afar having perpetual worry, wanting ego expression.
If I can’t do it, then it can’t be done, then what is the point of me, I don’t matter anywaym or all the pointsofanochius,why bother trying. When we go into Shabbos and our whole identity is based on doing, Hashem demands we let go of ego every week, willfully so that we don’t define ourselves this way but only as an expression of who we truly are. Every week we come back to who we truly are. When we feel we are not bound up by anything on the outside but I can feel and reveal the inner elokus in what I do, then I am serving Him and I don’t have to be sad about things. I don’t have to lack compassion or feel complacent or stagnant. It is all Hashem. I do my part.
RABA is an acronym
Ratzon, what we want and where we want to go to
Beis, behira, will
Hishtadlus, our effort
That is in our sphere of influence. We don’t own it, we possess it. We have an ability to choose. Our effort, that is tied to existing, energy and movement is all a sense of Him.
We access inner greatness that is already there, hidden within us, bringing it to the surface every week. When we stop melacha, and we let go of the end point, the outcome, outward things that are stable because there is really only Hashem. Remember, zachor, through kiddush and davening, He is the Creator. The First, the conductor of every part of creation, soul time and space. He is in everything we are testifying to His Everythingness through our nothingness. We testify to His Everythingness by our nothingness.
We give up our independence through our toiling during the week in positive melachos and we create a vacuum to darw in His everything ness and it is there we feel that we are truly something as an extension of Him, a manifestation of Hashem. It is there we feel we are truly something as a manifestation of His Will.
Here is story
Rabbi was young and found a gold rock and thought that he had found real gold, thinking of all the candy he could buy. His mom asked what is in the bag and he told her it is gold and she said it is not gold. They did not agree. The next day his uncle who is a gemologist came in and he told Rabbi it is not gold. He felt so crushed on the inside, like he had this wealth and how could something that looks so real turn out to be not real, counterfeit. If this is fake, what else is fake?
The ego, hte human existence, is non-real. We swear by it and it feels so real in our experiences in every way and it is not reality. That is the positive sense of nothingness. We transcend the ego on Shabbos by ceasing the melacha. We really are nothing. Are we a true nothing or a false nothing that leaves us with non-existence? A true sense of nothing is systematically subjugating human existence opening a place to allow the divine and then we can experience His everytingness and that is how we become truly something.
The ego is counterfeit.
Hashem says every week, here is a positive way to let go of ego from counterfeit nothingness to true nothingness. Hashem directs all the results. Hashem is not just in fire and wind and water, I am in earth too.
It is all divine cloaked in the natural, and so are hyou. Divineness is our elokus cloaked in the human natural existence and we work on getting to ahealthier positive nothingness. Then we feel the all encompassing presence of Hashem in our life. Then we feel it intrinsically tied to our own elements, to our fire, to movement, into core desires in water, into action and toiling and actions and results and let go of frustrations of controlling the way I want. Otherwise we just give up or get sad. that is unrectified fire that convinces us we are nothing We have to get it from higher level of consciousness and into the ground level of outcome and results and let go of ego and control and power the way we want. If my anger and frustration get inflamed, that is all afar based. If we do this, we think we don’t matter, get sad and laziness. We convince ourselves we are nothing in a false way. We are nothing in a true way that we have intrinsic value and love in relation to Him. That is what we go through every week for Shabbos.
The outcomes we have is truly inner ratzon connected to Him, how much is reflected, and wise choices on a moment to moment basis. We become refined, that is the power Hashem has gifted us. On Shabbos we give it back , we have no ownership, we never did, we give it back and connect to our immortal existence, the immortalith of the next world that we taste on Shabbos, and that depends on how we cocreate during the week. Then we feel Hashem’s presence in our lives. The outcome is gifted from Hashem, that in that smallness is where we feel Hashem. That is reconciliation of afar. The positive midda of afar is a constant state of joy. As long as I know I am connected through the elements back to Hashem, my identity is not independent in any way but completely bound to Him, then no matter how close or distant, I am always connected and that is a constant joy. When I get very earth based and rigid and controlling, then my ego is weighty , it is all on me, and the burden of life feels crushing. I can’t I won’t or I am not able to.
May we merit to continue living six days a week giving up human existence so that we have true divine existence and on Shabbos to uncover the hidden treasures within and know Hashem in the greatest way and bring the elements as yud k vav k, integrated parts of our divine self, for us to reflect Him into this world. This is why we exist. This is our avoda let’s get to it.