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Parshas Balak from Rabbi Asher Freund
As I listened to the message above, I felt it coincided with the place within me that makes a judgment and then takes the matter into my own hand. Over the years, I have spent great effort to not rush to action. This blog has been about my journey and this year, specifically, about my goal of regulating my emotions based on Torah and back to avodas Hashem. For this reason, as I listened, I realized once again how natural this thinking is. What, then, is something that can begin to balance such a natural ingrained thought pattern?
This week, Rabbi Genuth spoke more about the surrounding light, all that Hashem is doing “behind the scenes” so that I may receive one second of life. I began to take this very seriously.. What had to happen for me to have this cup of coffee in my hand? All the work for the beans, all the handling, the marketing, the people, the maintenance of those people – Hashem delivered to me a delicious cup of coffee.
What about that salmon in the oven? The ocean, the smaller fish the salmon ate, the fisherman, the boat, the storage, the marketing, the people involved….all so that I can take it out of the oven and make a blessing.
I am beginning to realize that as huge as it is to have a nefesh elokis and a body, there is a far greater spiritual involvement that is coming to me, for which I have immense gratitude.
Before I rush to judgment or pride myself for even being able to type one word, I am realizing how much gratitude is appropriate and that, indeed, He is doing everything.
Thank you Hashem and may my effort to bring all that flows through me to mitzvahs be a teshuva, a merit, a healing, a cancellation of gezeira, a satisfaction of din and a blessing for the soul as it exists within myself, my family, klal yisrael and mankind, and may we awaken to see Your Light and Goodness in every moment and only do what is good according to Torah.