Hashem is One.
What is it that we are yearning for if not to feel the loving embrace of Hashem – wellbeing, safety, fulfillment, empowerment?
What is in the way? Could it be that what is in our way is our own concoction of what would bring us that wellbeing, safety, fulfillment and empowerment?
What if we truly could comprehend that what is in the way is actually concealing the kedusha from Hashem to bring us wellbeing, safety, fulfillment and empowerment? What if we trusted that this Infinite Light of His Blessing comes into the world in a concealed way and is released through our free willed effort to purge all of our own concocted ideas because we have emunah and trust in Torah and Hashem?
Does that feel very distant? Do we have objections to that? Would those objections perhaps also be lined with the kedusha we need to release in order to experience the wellbeing, safety, fulfillment and empowerment that we yearn for?
If we are open to this idea, we begin to comprehend how the natural intellect is rooted so high and is filled with Infinite Light that, if we attach it with awareness that Hashem is One to Torah and His Compassion, that light can then be enclothed in our speech and deeds.
This is an infinite path. There is always another step towards the Infinite Loving Creator. Our role is to take those steps and with each step, draw the truth deeper into our hearts so that we may comprehend our lives and the reactions we have. Doing so helps us so much when interacting. For we are all cast into a constricted place where the tornado of taiva and gaiva swirl us towards self-interest and away from expressing the compassion flowing through the nefesh elokis to us.
Each effort may be tumultuous and filled with obstacles due to influences regarding how we are treated and what that means. The more we break our emotional reactions down into the elemental pieces of taiva and gaiva and see how the light is spinning us away from Torah and compassion, the deeper we may pray to Hashem that the same kedusha that is driving us into a whirlwind instead flow through us as compassion. To do this, we need emunah and bitachon.
Those who read this blog probably notice that I have shared these same thoughts for years. The Torah is true. Each time I share it, it is from a different level of understanding. When I look back at how I say it four years ago, and how I say it now, I see the Torah that says it but I also see that the ways that I trust this have widened from consistent effort over time.
This is important in our relationships with others. We are all on a journey. We are all clinging to Torah. May Hashem give us the insights we need to see our inner struggles as the same as each other’s inner struggles and constrict ourselves and objectively see that in the recognizing of the struggle is an inherent activation of love for Hashem that we may then enclothe into words of kindness and compassion.
The raw natural responses that we feel which take the Infinite Light and place that into words of judgment, shame and blame hold the very Light that may be enclothed in compassion, relieving each of the parties and the situation. Torah teaches this to us. But to really see this requires a willingness to consider that the intensity of what we feel is distinct from the messages it is concealed within. We have real free will to ask Hashem for that same light to flow instead into Torah, avoda and compassion. We sincerely submit our being, our heart, out of emunah and bitachon. It may not go the way we originally wish it would go, but it is all good, naaseh v’nisma.
This week of malchut, Rosh Chodesh Sivan, may we take the light that we have redeemed during the counting of the omer and bring it into understanding and compassion. And may we trust “we were shown to know” and experience love for Hashem and a sense of wellbeing, safety, fulfillment, empowerment.