The topic for today is strengthening will for the truth, which is compassion.
We have at times circumstances, difficult challenges. Something that happens that crushes our heart. Our emotions go into turmoil. We feel our mind racing. Our blood is boiling. Our heads feel light. Our mouth begins to want to speak words that we might regret.
We may, indeed, need to say something.
Take a moment though to go beyond what is swirling to touch the real truth, which is compassion.
How is this compassion?
There is no thought, no emotion, no inanimate object, no plant, no animal, no person that does not have as its inner soul compassion. The reason is that the place of the world is Hashem, Whose Compassion fills every utterance, in which He and His Compassion are hidden.
Even more so, the very powerful emotions and thoughts that we experience are most likely our very own soul that we bonded together with a false thought, a bad habit, or which got bonded together with a hurtful memory or trauma. Thus, the soul of what is hurting us is powered by our own soul and choices.
Let’s take a closer look still to the soul – our soul. There has only ever been one soul created. Every person who ever lived or who is alive or who ever will live is a blossom on that one soul. Each of us, with our timeline, our circumstances, our bodies, our experiences – all of which are under the direct supervision of Hashem – has awareness and real free will and the creative power of speech. With these gifts of awareness, free will and speech, our soul has the power to shine through whatever coarse material Hashem is giving us to refine. We have the opportunity to draw the compassion from the coarse material by using our free will to speak to Hashem, describing where the matter is mixed, and asking for all of the spiritual positive energy to be restored to its ability to reveal compassion. We want to be free of the falsehoods that conceal it. We want the compassion to be itself and not animating what we might have previously and unintentionally or naturally assigned it to by our aveiras, natural urges, bad habits, coping mechanisms, defensiveness, adaptation to trauma or previous poor choices.
At all times, Hashem is with us, He loves us, and He only sends good. It is up to us to embrace and remember that He only is sending compassion for us to benefit from. He gives us opportunity to dissolve the coarse material and grab the compassion from there as well. In this way, we have the opportunity of a lifetime to copy what Hashem did in creating the world, sorting the good from the coarse material. He has left a level of coarseness for us to remove so that WE may have the joy of choosing to be like Him.
“It’s happening again! Why does everyone treat me like dirt?” that might be one sign that we are being given a huge load of compassion to redeem.
“I don’t feel that person loves me. They are not doing x y or z.” That may be another sign that we are being given an opportunity to redeem compassion and grow in awareness of Hashems lovingkindness.
There is an urge in us that is false. That false urge, when our backs are to the wall, is to think that we can take something back – a love lost, an image despoiled. We cannot. We have no power whatsoever to impact the world at large unless Hashem grants permission. And yet we try, we take the very compassion of life that Hashem gives us and try to use natural means to grab back what we feel is being taken away. Acting on such a reaction does not grow us in awareness of Hashem nor does it add any merit to us for perfecting the world.
When we have will for the truth, which is compassion, it means that our will is to be part of the compassion Hashem sends as blessing to the world at all times, to be a part of Him, in the relationship that He Designs for us. When we go beyond the turmoil of our emotions to tell Hashem that we love Him and understand the design and that we are swirling and know that in all that we feel is His Compassion mixed in with dross, we then ask that He please give all of the positive spiritual creative energy to us in its rectified form so that we feel His love and mercy directly. We want to reveal compassion. We want to be a stronger vessel or being a conduit of compassion.
What happens next is that the love and awe that we feel bring a willful drop of olam haba consciousness into the mix and Hashem adds to it and somehow, it affects all of the spiritual energy in the turmoil. Our mind might race…but but… but we do it again. There is no room for doubts. Everything is filled only with Hashem’s simple compassion. There is no other power.
Do we still need to say something? Most likely, what was dissolved had no basis in fact and there is no need to say anything. And if we do need to say something, surely it will be toned down and appropriate and solely for the benefit of the other person, said with love and caring in a way that can be heard and felt as love, not criticism or stern judgment.
May we be empowered in the moment, excited, to bring to Hashem what we think and feel so that we may act with ein od milvado consciousness and be part of the blessings in the world. And may we soon see a new light in the world.