For an aliya for the neshama of Chaim Shneur Zalman ben Betzalel Hakohen, a young boy who lost his fight with the machla
The effort we are designed to make in every millisecond of life is to pierce through the natural but corrupted character traits that stem from the eating of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Doing so affects the entire universe each try.
When we do battle in the moment, we are bringing a light from the part of us that is made in Hashem’s image to shine through, regardless of whether or not we succeed. Just remembering to try brings the part of us that is made in Hashem’s image into contact with what needs to be affected and improved in the world. And that holds true regardless of whether or not we see any results.
When we have Hashem in the center at every moment and take this seriously – to try to reveal the part of us that is made in Hashem’s image over our natural inclinations when in fight or flight (sad, mad, bad) – we are creating positive influence. And the matter that brought the challenge, which was never under our control, may now also be given a positive outcome by Hashem if it is good in His eyes.
Our effort to reveal the part of us that is made in Hashem’s image over the natural part that has developed because of fight or flight responses (sad, mad, bad) creates a positive influence beyond what we may see in the moment. Our role is to recognize Hashem is One and that He designs us so that we, being loyal to His Oneness, attempt to make effort to bring to this world Hashem’s love and compassionate mercy.
We are in this world to subdue and conquer the image of ourselves that is confused by the zoohama, thereby correcting Adom’s sin. We nullify our ego and return the sparks within the zoohama (the tohu) with our attempt to repair and rectify. For this, we receive eternal reward.
Our efforts appear to us one way – according to the circumstances that present the reaction within us – but in reality, we may be doing something to affect the world according to what Hashem desires from us. The main thing to know that at all times we are totally safe and secure because Hashem is One and He is in total control.
Our efforts made to remove the zoohama from our inner world are ours to make. What is up to Hashem? To give success or not. That means, we may make the effort and that does not necessarily mean that we have served Hashem as He Desires. When we do, we feel a shift internally. And often, with that internal shift, comes Hashem’s blessing for accomplishment in the area of the challenge that presented the opportunity to overcome our nature in the first place.
Our role is to recognize Hashem is One and that He designs us so that we, being loyal to His Oneness, attempt to make effort to bring to this world Hashem’s love and compassionate mercy. To do so, we are subduing the image of ourselves that is confused by the zoohama, thereby correcting Adom’s sin. We nullify our ego and return the sparks within the zoohama (the tohu) with our attempt to repair and rectify. For this, we receive eternal reward.
When we slow the action frames down to each millisecond, we see that the effort we are making is to correct our corrupted character traits, which in turn affect the entire universe.
When we have Hashem in the center and take this seriously – to reveal Hashem over our natural inclinations- we are creating positive influence. And the matter that brought the challenge, which was never under our control, may now also be given a positive outcome by Hashem if it is good in His eyes.
Hashem designs each of us uniquely. What is the universal truth that I, with my uniqueness, am designed to come to see and be loyal to?
I am a neshama with infinite connection to Hashem and can be a vessel to bring in His Infinite love and compassion and power and I choose that as my identity over the natural appearances and use my unique nature to reveal the neshama.
Our survival depends only on Hashem. We can feel safe knowing that everything is designed by Hashem and in His Hands.
We are where our thoughts are.
When we put our thoughts towards yearning to feel Hashem’s love and mercy, then our mind becomes a place through which His Love and mercy may be revealed in our speech and deeds.
Our effort is to love Hashem and understand the design so that our thoughts are all for revealing Hashem’s love and mercy in this world. When we confess what blocks us and ask for His Help, we recognize the truth of the world and our unique role that He has designed.
The universal block is the fear associated with death and dying. When we recognize that we are neshamas in bodies and that the neshama lives on, our role here is to give the neshama a joyful eternal life for remembering this. Embrace the mission of clinging to Hashem, trusting Hashem, adding the strength of what blocks to the strength with which our neshama can reveal Hashem. That chips away the vulnerability that blocks us in survival mode.
What does this look like in practical reality? We all understand that our people have many different groupings. How do we assure that our grouping survives? How are we protecting our particular uniqueness? Are we relying on the wisdom of the lower daas, of the messages we have acquired based on our tribulations throughout history and the survival instincts that have become part of our best thinking on how to assure continuation? Or are we remembering in the moment that we are neshamas who have an infinite connection to Hashem, The Only Power, Who is worthy to be relied upon before we take any action and Who tells us, according to Torah, how to conduct ourselves? Where do we place our greater trust, on street smarts or on emunah and bitachon and insight from the Torah on what to do to address our challenge?
We believe in doing hishtadlus, making an effort. However, if we are utilizing the daas of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and success is up to Hashem, is that our best choice? What if we first realize Hashem is the only return address and we thank Him for the opportunity to do the work of repairing the natural elements by infusing love and mercy in our hearts to the reactivity? By so doing, we regulate our own reactivity and once again feel safe in Hashem’s arms. Now we have the wisdom to pursue a daas of Torah solution and reveal Hashem’s love and mercy. How quickly do we move into the daas of the knowledge of good and evil? What will it take for us to have the emunah to move into the daas of the tree of life?
Hashem is real. He is infinite and all powerful. It is possible for us to truly comprehend these truths as well as to understand ourselves primarily as made in His Image and set in bodies to conquer the pulls on us that resulted from having eaten from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. We live in a world of intention. Hashem knows our hearts. It is for us to have awe in the design of the world, to love Hashem and to fear Him. We have real free will. He will respond based on the strength of our emunah.
This is why it is important to have a daily dynamic process of building emunah. Learning and practicing emunah become the real essential self, the place in our inner world where our essential self that is made in Hashem’s image has voice and expression and impact on our hearts, our speech, deeds and bodies.