The quote in the video above from Bilvavi is from this newsletter: Bilvavi.Shavuos.Newsletter
Although it may sound counter-intuitive to work on receiving Hashem’s radical acceptance of us when, in reality,, we are attempting to do teshuva on being distracted from G-dconsciousness, realizing that Hashem loves us and that we are in a relationship of love with Him IS a form of teshuva.
We tend to think that we have autonomous existence and that our existence is essential. These are the qualities that fell into this world from the broken world that collapsed because of these qualities. These qualities cause friction between entities and a false belief and use of powerful and damaging actions to “ensure” survival. Moving toward receiving radical acceptance from Hashem opens us up to realizing we are not alone nor are we essential. Hashem is essential and we are a part of Him. This is teshuva, a start of teshuva.
One might think, teshuva where I can take? Sure that sounds great. But in order to receive radical acceptance, we have to tell Hashem what our flaws are. Should we make the mistake of thinking Hashem will pour love upon us radically without our turning our face toward Him first, we would then probably be connecting our soul to distractions that are taking us farther away from Hashem’s radical acceptance of us.
Thus, speaking out loud to Hashem and telling Him how we are feeling and asking for His radical acceptance is a form of teshuva….it is an acceptance by us of the relationship itself. That is true whether or not we take any further steps to improve ourselves. However, if we have moments of seeking Hashem’s radical acceptance, perhaps we will build up more emunah and bitachon, faith and trust, to take another small step on the teshuva journey.