Today’s 100 thank you’s

  1. Thank you for four year old grandchild
  2. Thank you for power struggles
  3. Thank you for losing power struggles to a four year old
  4. Thank you for frustrating my wish to show the three year old the two year old the one year old and the baby how to play together nicely by losing the power struggle to a four year old
  5. Thank you for colorful balls.
  6. Thank you for the roly poly game that I wanted to show how to share with.
  7. Thank you for the challenging “grab” statement my four year old made demanding that I switch balls
  8. Thank you for my not reacting angrily to the four year old and instead saying that we are using it right now and the four year old is welcome to join us
  9. Thank you for my not acting out the frustration I felt when the four year old stood in the middle of the game and declared intention not to budge until I switched balls.
  10. Thank you for the wherewithal to say no we are not switching balls but you can join us, we love you and want you to play.
  11. Thank you for the challenge of the child’s frustration in not getting what the child wants and continued obstruction of the plan I had to show how to play together nicely.
  12. Thank you for helping me say that the child is very powerful and that is really something but there is something even more powerful than knocking things down, and that is building Simcha.
  13. Thank you that that the lesson I intended collapsed and the four others did not really receive the benefit of what I wished to show and instead saw something else.
  14. Thank you for helping me see why this was good, so that I could re-experience what it was like to want something and not receive it and have the loving parent figure assert their will over mine.
  15. Thank you for helping me wonder if perhaps I should have just switched the ball.
  16. Thank you for helping me see that it was okay to say no, I am playing with it, because it is okay to say no and that I did not have to feel threatened with a temper tantrum and thereby avoid it by giving in first.
  17. Thank you for helping me re-live the blame and condemnations I felt when I frustrated a parent’s will when I was young
  18. Thank you for putting me in touch with that inner part of a young child that wants to please the parent who appears like Hashem in the child’s life and whose opinion and treatment of the child forms the child’s own beliefs about herself.
  19. Thank you for helping me understand why not getting what we want brings on a frustration and an aggression that is part of our natural makeup, grownups included.
  20. Thank you for helping me desire to instead bring my unfulfilled wants to Hashem’s Will, feeling small and beloved in His Arms, and instead of becoming aggressive, see my role as facilitating the child’s being able to release frustration properly.
  21. Thank you for in the moment offering for the child to perhaps scramble eggs if the child is frustrated with my saying no.
  22. Thank you for putting in my mind to tell the child that I felt upset because I was trying to show everyone how to play nicely and what happened was like getting a tower I built knocked down.
  23. Thank you that the child apologized.
  24. Thank you that I see how my innermost penimius got attached to faulty images of myself.
  25. Thank you for hearing my prayers that I regret all the mistakes I have made because of these faulty images and that instead I choose for my inner penimius to just be with Hashem by being a vessel to reveal Hashem’s compassion.
  26. Thank you for helping me start by being understanding of my own inner child that has been tortured by these images for wanting anything.
  27. Thank you for helping me see how to say no with a proper understanding of the frustration it will cause and how to help with that.
  28. Thank you for the confidence that it is okay to say no without feeling like I am selfish or did not share and that the demanding party is correct and I am the one to blame.
  29. Thank you for helping me see how power is wielded by making a request that puts another person in this conundrum between feeling selfish and having a good enough reason to say no.
  30. Thank you for helping me see how this is the beginning of conflicts and how there is no real resolution for it without the absolute truth of Torah to go by.
  31. Thank you for showing me why people who learn how to fight and assert their point of view very young have been a challenge for me my whole life.
  32. Thank you for helping me let go of judgments about that but rather see how knowing how to assert one’s view is one thing and knowing when to assert it is another.
  33. Thank you for showing me how to bring Hashem back into the picture even if asserting a “no” is necessary by remaining loving and caring and sensitive to the feelings and experience of the other and trying to help them get through their reaction, assuming that what I have asserted is proper and for the ultimate good according to Torah.
  34. Thank you for giving me time and the opportunity to redo so much of the friction points that formed so many years ago when I was so young.
  35. Thank you for placing me in situations where my emotional upsets give me opportunity to do teshuva and to reach upwards with requests that all my previous errors be healed and turned into mitzvahs because now I see.
  36. Thank you for helping me find ways to teach the babies why not to hurt each other in a way that they can hear.
  37. Thank you for raising in my mind the question about whether learning how to fight and fight back has its place at all.
  38. Thank you for helping me remember that everything first has to be told to Hashem before we act at all.
  39. Thank you for giving me opportunity to see how my mistakes deeply affected others.
  40. Thank you for helping me stop doing these “innocent” things understanding how it triggers others.
  41. Thank you for letting me know that others see the changes that I am making and that softens past mistakes.
  42. Thank you for being able to talk to You and to tell You all that I feel and ask that my errors be corrected and healed so that those who were affected should be strengthened instead of hurt by my mistakes.
  43. Thank you for helping me find that the gematria of the amount the stock market dropped and regained, 567, is the gematria for Moshiach Ben Yosef.
  44. Thank you for helping me find that the gematria of the amount the stock market went down 1175 and then regained 567, leaving a gap of 608, that gematria, 608 is the gematria of Moshiach son of David will come amen.
  45. Thank you that I can do teshuva and correct myself and come closer to You while I have free will.
  46. Thank you that I see that I am giving in too much to being sedentary
  47. Thank you for helping me realize that it is the yetzer hara and it is not really what I want
  48. Thank you for helping me see that I am giving up by listening to the yetzer hara and to daven instead to Hashem for protection.
  49. Thank you that I got moving today a little more
  50. Thank you Hashem that I felt like I could still do what I know is healthy.
  51. Thank you Hashem for every ounce of good health that I enjoy.
  52. Thank you that my thumb is really feeling so much better after three quarters of a year of a stress injury, may it heal completely
  53. Thank you that I have not over eaten today
  54. Thank you that it is raining and not snowing.
  55. Thank you that I recognize how easy it is to slip into being self-focused on subjective topics that are not even good for me
  56. Thank you for helping me see that it is deception about where my love and value come from, so that the yetzer hara can suckle off my life force with a simple kickback to my heart of comfort/laziness as a payoff
  57. Thank you for the understanding that absolutely everything that happens every second can be returned to You.
  58. Thank you for the understanding of how to get on top of our pervasive moods and beliefs, by remembering our primary service is to be a pipeline reflecting Your compassion into the world.
  59. Thank you for these thank you’s so that I can review my thinking when consciousness fades.
  60. Thank you for showing me that there are people who actually do appreciate what I share so that the idea of how my struggles might have meaning beyond my own life.
  61. Thank you for all the stability in my life.
  62. Thank you for the nice warm home
  63. Thank you for showing me that video on kangoo shoes, it looks like a lot of fun, even for seniors who are brave enough I wonder?
  64. Thank you for shots that help babies, even though they get temperature from it and cry.
  65. Thank you to Rabbi Tzvi Dov Slanger, OBM, whose funeral was today, who benefitted my family through the yeshiva and his loving interest. BDE
  66. Thank you for the month of Shevat, filled with yahrtzeits and intellectual challenges to purify during shovavim
  67. Thank you for the breakthroughs in understanding anger and how locked up anger forms distorted images of oneself.
  68. Thank you for helping me feel that anger and for all the learning so that I could ask You to please bring the compassion animating the anger back to yearning to be with You.
  69. Thank you for helping me shed the obstructions in my thinking due to images and false beliefs frustrating my will and generating the aggressive anger against myself and others.
  70. Thank you for helping me feel how the anger really is associated with something external and ultimately not my inner penimius.
  71. Thank you that I truly believe that I am made in Your Image and have the mission to reflect You in this world and that my kavod is my potential to do that even if I have much more to go.
  72. Thank you re-filling in my mind and heart, in the place of false beliefs, an easier more fluid, loving thought process that is more and more natural.
  73. Thank you for the sound of rain outside my window, so relaxing and safe in here.
  74. Thank you for computers that work
  75. Thank you for every penny we have.
  76. Thank you for looking after my family every day and keeping them safe and on track.
  77. Thank you for the song you are so beautiful to me by Joe Cocker that I sing to the kinderlach to help them regulate their feelings when they are upset or need to go to sleep. You are so beautiful to me, can’t you see, you are everything I hope for, you’re everything I need, You are so beautiful to me. Such Joy and happiness you bring. Such joy and happiness you bring. Like a dream.  A guiding light that shines in the night, Heavens gift to me. You are so beautiful to me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lPsFr0svG_w
  78. Thank you for the video of Rabbi Ovadia Yosef greeting Rabbi Shalom Arush, what love we can show from Hashem https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l3I7vhcnbb8
  79. Thank you for giving me the continuing belief that love is a greater power than the power of destruction
  80. Thank you Hashem for being all loving and all present
  81. Thank you Hashem for giving me the yearning to connect through loving You to be with You, that my heart should serve You and my deeds reflect You.
  82. Thank you for immune boosters like elderberry and garlic that help my body stay healthy
  83. Thank you for reminders that it is my obligation to keep my health as much as is in my control.
  84. Thank you for the understanding of why those who see the movie Ghost cry when the penny comes to her “for love”, for it may represent trust that the love we are all yearning for is there, Hashem loving us constantly.
  85. Thank you for the Bilvavi who explains how when we make a genuine bracha, it becomes a means of transferring sheaf of Hashem upon creation, allowing us to serve as a vital pipeline, through love of Hashem and His love in return. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1TO4god9cLwoizkQW2Elm_i_-jARo_7jP/view?usp=drivesdk
  86. Thank you for the many tools of technology that make it possible for me to learn and to share and to grow with teachers and chaverusas I would otherwise never meet.
  87. Thank you for hearing from the media clips on gratitude messages that help me really see how all roads emerge from Hashem Echad and how to utilize confidence in that to restore love and value despite the storms that seek to confuse us.
  88. Thank you for the sweetener truvia, a stevia extract, that makes it possible to have worry free sweet tea.
  89. Thank you for my granddaughter’s six month birthday.
  90. Thank you for the memory of my mother as her yahrtzeit approaches this Fri 24 Shevat, who was as honest and thrifty and fun-loving as they come.
  91. Thank you for helping me set boundaries and explain myself without feeling that I have offended someone or been inappropriate or selfish.
  92. Thank you for helping me see how distortions affected how I pursued happiness and why those pursuits did not produce the desired results
  93. Thank you for working washer/dryer
  94. Thank you that the temporary fix to the doorknob is holding until I have time to really fix it.
  95. Thank you for my chiropractor who told me to rub turmeric onto the area of the thumb and wrist that hurt…it really helps the inflammation.
  96. Thank you for peace and quiet.
  97. Thank you for the promise of peace with the coming of Moshiach.
  98. Thank you for the understanding that life is temporary and that just as no one realizes this every moment, so too we may not realize that this world is temporary too.
  99. Thank you Hashem for all of Creation.
  100. Thank you Hashem for giving me life, for sustaining my life and the life of my family, for the kavod of being alive, and for the amazing opportunity to hang out with something of You here in Your Creation, may I give you nachas ruach.

 

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