Hashem gives us a life force, a soul, for the period of our lifetime. It has an animalistic component regarding our physicality and a holy component regarding being made in Hashem’s image and likeness. We are created with two basic flaws. Firstly, although we can emulate Hashem’s kindness, it is not possible for us to be kind like Hashem, creating worlds, thinking things into existence, and giving life to the world. Hashem is the true Power and the only value and by aligning with Him we have a value in the potential to emulate Him, regardless of whether we do or not. Every moment of life has value because Hashem deems us the life and therefore He values our being alive. That is the basis for our value. But it is not the same as being Hashem by far. Secondly, we no longer have conscious awareness of Hashem’s unconditionally loving presence. We do not sense or feel naturally that we are surrounded by and filled by Hashem’s lovingkindness. These two lacks give us free will. With free will, we are able to build eternal life as well as joyful life in this world.
What gets in our way? Obviously we are far from feeling happy every moment.
As part of free will, Hashem gives us a real sensory felt alternative to Torah truths about Hashem and the relationship He wants with us. How do we navigate through our compelling and often painful experiences of loss or hurt, which Torah teaches us means that we are in the grips of something false because everything Hashem does is good. We are not instructed to suppress what we feel or perceive. We are instructed to investigate where our line of thinking has something that is not true according to Torah and then to make a repair. That effort IS the purpose for why we are given life, to fix something that only we can fix, and to bring Hashem’s truth and Torah to shine from that place itself. Doing so brings all the spiritual koach from both the matter presenting negatively and the compassion that animates it back into the service of Hashem. Here are the steps.
1. Say the false belief out loud until you hear the falseness and then answer. Saying it out loud brings it from its place of reactivity in our natural brain to the speech center where we can think about it through the lens of Torah.
2.The two true unconscious impulses of how we are lacking love (lost consciousness of Hashem’s love) or value (we are jealous of Hashem’s chesed and want to be like Him and can’t have that same value) crash into the situation unconsciously feeling true because they are yet we see a personalized image that comes to my mind with a negative message about me. What is that personalized image?
3.I believe that image of me and am stuck in that thought because I don’t yet see how the true unconscious impulse of how we are lacking love or value ended up crashing me into disempowerment by attracting my soul to cling to images of jealousy, desire and honor as true. Here are the thoughts related to the disempowerment in the hopes that I may discern how the vulnerability from the impulse clings searching for how to naturally survive based on the images being designed by the yetzer hara with messages of jealousy, lusts or craving for honor.
4.How did yearning to be kind like Hashem or the absence of feeling Hashem’s love turn into believable images and thoughts that disempower me – where specifically are those thoughts rooted from within my natural survival thinking, development and coping mechanisms?
5 Survival depends on Hashem alone so the deeper false belief, or its analysis, if any, relates to natural survival instincts which misleadingly tell me my survival depends on something or someone external to me and my relationship to Hashem, namely what?
Once we see how external our thinking is from the real internal struggle to reconnect to Hashem’s love and to yearn to be with His Value as Kindness, then we realize that even though our thinking is internal, it IS external from our soul that is made in Hashem’s Image. Now we can see the futility of giving our life force, our holy soul, over to the suggestions that come out of our natural thinking. Instead, we discern a true way to reconnect to Hashem’s love and value and we calm down. We need emunah to do this. We grow in emunah when we make this effort. We come to see and feel Hashem’s constant presence and love for us as our burdens are lifted by our sincere request to purify ourselves from the images that naturally come out of the impulses.
May we each make our efforts in this regard and joyfully use our real free will to shine real love and value into the world over the otherwise negatively rooted desiring emotions.