The point we are focusing on in our inner world is the natural pull that tells us all the good reasons why we need to say or do something to stand up for ourselves or to protect ourselves even though our words or actions might really tear someone else apart. What is that about?
It seems like our survival is at stake – our survival in time and space that is.
And it might be.
Our survival instincts listen immediately to the tools that we see work the best in time and space. Unfortunately, those tools tend to be quite destructive – just like negative statements about political opponents seems to persuade voters, so too do we listen to our most determined self-oriented positions and put them forward as forcefully as we know how, in self-defense for our lives and/or beliefs.
Here is the false belief – we think our survival is up to us, that our success is in our hands, that we know what is best.
Here is the true belief – survival is determined by Hashem alone, our success is up to Him, and we are in charge of making our best effort to live the truth of the Torah, pray fervently from a place of loving Hashem, and doing mitzvahs and emulating His 13 attributes of mercy.
We have a permanent career as long as we are alive. That career is to positively impact our hearts away from our natural survival instincts in favor of removing from within us what is blocking Hashem’s 13 attributes of mercy from being revealed through our speech and deeds.
Within each of us is a place that at this very moment loves Hashem with great passion. Do we feel it? Can we keep that love for Hashem in focus every moment, or at least more and more? If not, what is blocking it from being expressed?
May we cry from the places that are blocking us and beseech Hashem to please instead unify our soul to reveal Him. And may we soon see a new light, a light of Moshiach and utopia in this world.