How can we truly observe the laws of loving our fellow Jew when we experience irritation, insult, or worse due to the deeds or words or lack thereof for which we fault others?
The image of ourselves that we project, our ego image, can feel shattered and we may experience feelings of being rejected, annihilated or of being irrelevant. What good can come from this?
We are made in the image of Hashem. NOT the image that our ego rooted in the kelipas of taiva/desire and gaiva/arrogance persists in projecting.
Imagine if we could truly n a more and more natural way project our image made in the image of Hashem”s 13 Attributes of Mercy. Would the world be a better place for it? I think so.
We have real free will. Hashem gives us a starter image based on having an unconscious and subconscious mind that develops our personality and is the source of our thoughts, emotions and deeds. Yet there is something above thought emotion and deed, and that is real free will. It is super rational. It is not based on human logic or human emotions. We have the ability to choose a super rational will based on Torah values. There is a dimension of our soul that is not just in time and space, not just enlivening our existence. And that part of our soul is completely 100% certain at all times that the only Glory in the world is Hashem’s Glory. That part of us is not in doubt. It experiences pleasure when we do Hashem’s will and it experiences pain when we fall short. We in our bodies may or may not experience the pleasure or pain of our soul because we have a covering over our soul that is tremendously distracting, albeit external to the soul.
Thus sets the stage for our interactions with each other. Shall we rely on what we can sense experientially or shall we pursue attempting to expand our access to something more?
In order to pursue expanding ourselves into something more, we run to Hashem’s 13 Attributes of mercy as a city of refuge by being patient. When we are in emotional pain Hashem bears our confusion of mind. He allows Himself to be in ouir darkness until we ourselves make a choice to release our tzelem elokim from that dark place. Thus, our first step is to also bear our own confusion of mind and in so doing, we take the very first step towards ahavas yisrael as well as ahavas Hashem.
With love for Hashem we choose to emulate Him by bearing our own discomfort of mind. From that place, aligned with His Middos, a shift has been made for which we have created a positive spiritual being to lead us n the path we desire to go. By submitting to our love for Hashem enough to emulate Him, we demonstrate to Him that we truly love Him. Immediately, our love for Him triggers awareness that we pulled or almost pulled Him into the darkness, and because we are aligned we have compassion for Hashem for His tolerating us and bearing the burden of our confusion of mind in that moment we felt negatively towards another. Why?
In order for Hashem to come into time and space, He must constrict Himself. Hashem is hidden here. If He were not, there would not be a revealed world. All we would see is Hashem’s light. Thus Hashem constricts Himself. That means when we are in constricted thinking, it is coming from a constriction from Hashem, through our unconscious and subconscius. The goal is 100% to give us a choice, shall we unmask Hashem’s light from the constriction and through our brain to heart circuitry reflect His 13 attributes into the world, or shall we fall victiim to the yetzer hara pulling us with its logic and violating our intuitive sense to do so with real life examples and rationales for holding onto something negative. Perhaps this is why there are specific mitzvahs of the Torah to not hold a grudge, to not hate another Jew in our heart, and to not take revenge. With clear guidelines, it helps us move back to align with the Source for all happiness, learning Torah fervent prayer, and emulating Hashems 13 Attributes of Mercy. The very first of Hashem’s 13 Attributes of Mercy is tolerating insults. Much of the time, we hope to just reach thatl!!
Bearing the burden of our confusion of mind leads to compassion for Hashem and a desire to release what is stored in our memories, personalities, old patterns, faulty beliefs, broken images and more so that the light trapped there can flow through us with the added strength of having come from the natural kelipas, thereby shoring up the holes in our intuitive mind through which the logic of the yetzer hara is designed to draw off even more tzelem elokim. But if we have the AWARENESS of what is happening, and the LOVE for Hashem, and the PATIENCE and AWE to draw upon our emunah to reorganize everything, we land in a super rational place, and that is the role of being Nishmas Am Yisrael.
Everything in heaven wants expression in time and space and everything in time and space wants to be uplifted to heaven. Nishmas Am Yisrael is the vessel through which Hashem’s Glory can be reflected into this world and our choices generate strengthend light, meaning that more is added to what flows through us more naturally when we seek to emulate Hashem.
Loving our fellow Jew is a mitzvah that heals us of the places where our pursuit of happiness fell into the faulty thinnking that happiness can be attained through goals of time and space. The more we remember to bear the burden of our confusion of mind, the more we reassociate happiness with learning Torah, fervent prayer and emulating Hashem’s 13 ATtributes of mercy. and the more happiness we associate with learning Torah, fervent prayer and emulating Hashem’s 13 ATtributes of mercy, the more we make ourselves in His Image, our true eternal image. And that becomes more and more natural over the ego urges. These choices which are before us every moment of every day tell Hashem by our effort that we love Him and want HIm in this world so much. The effort to be mesiras nefesh in this way literally transforms us more and more.
Loving our fellow Jew becomes a mitzvah that we do to heal our image from natural ego image to an image made in Hashem’s image. It shows Hashem that we are sincere n wanting Him in this world And there is one more crucial step.
Whatever was holding us back was probably do to human nature or old programming and it is easy to slip into blaming others or circumstances as an excuse for why we should be forgiven. The key improvement to that thinking is to understand that we are all products of generations of adaptation, coping and more just to survive, adopting current social tactics and norms into our thinking. At some point, it is up to us to flip the entire matter back into service of Hashem, releasing all the light that has been trapped in the suffering of our people. By simply forgiving whomever set our behira point, not only do we build a new image to project, but we also create forgiveness for all the generations preceding us whose suffering may have been so great that they could not do the mitzvah of having compassion on the Shecbina trapped in their confusion of mind.
May we each understand that we are Nishmas Am Yisrael here to reflect Hashem, the King, into the world, a people who desire to do so out of love and awe for Hashem, and who hope to make a kiddush Hashem with every moment of our lives. and may our forgiving what we need to in order to draw into our natural reactions more and more of Hashem’s attributes of mercy create an arousal from below to stimulate Hashem to send us Moshiach to truly lead us through the redemptive process, b’ahava.