What causes us anxiety universally is fear of harm. Our imagination regarding where that harm could come from scans personal history for validation. And our self-referencing instinct to defend ourselves activates. Whatever action we may come up with becomes our reaction. Our reaction is consistent with our imagination as we have built up the facts. Yet we may not actually be in the realm of truth.
Let’s bring Hashem into the picture.
Our survival is up to Hashem. Yes we need to take proper precautions but most of our anxieties are perceived threats and not true threats, especially to the degree we believe we are threatened. To comprehend deeply how this ordinary daily or even hourly occurrence can take place is crucial if we are to bring together truth and our actions/reactions.
Hashem fills the world and thinks up our soul. Thus we are here because of two actions of Hashem, Hashem’s thoughts and Hashem’s utterances. Hashem’s utterances include all of nature, which appears to have many powers, independent entities, all to bring sensations to our perceptions triggering our neurocircuitry. Nations form alliances and threaten the state of Israel, even as this is being written. There is only Hashem. None other. Everything is from Hashem, just and good. That is truth. But that is hardly our reaction, nor is it intended to be the reaction based on being alive in bodies in time and space.
Our reaction thrusts each of us into a place of choice. Will we remember to bring Hashem into the picture and resolve within our mind to heart reactions that everything is from Hashem and is just and good? And what difference does it make if my mind to heart reaction accomplishes this inner peace?
Outer peace depends exclusively on the degree each of us takes the time to bring ourselves to inner peace. When we grind our reactions into dust, Hashem Himself is present. And that is His Desire, to be in time and space through our pulling ourselves back and being vessels to shine His Light.
Scanning and experiencing anxiety out of legitimate fear is a normal reaction. It is natural. And the natural world is under the dominion of the yetzer hara and is designed to present us with tests the resolution of which determines our eternity. When Hashem is concealed, we are troubled thinking it is up to us. But when we realize He is near and we see our mistakes and sins, it is terrifying. We far more like to see ourselves as independent, powerful and capable of running our lives in a secular natural way. When we are afraid to be afraid of Hashem, which means that we give in to cynicism rather than awe of Hashem, we are left with culling resolution of our dependency needs from the natural order that Hashem gives dominion over to the yetzer hara. Everything we would then do remains stuck in the kelipas, the garments, over the Soul of Everything..
What courage do we need and how do we obtain that courage, to choose awe of Hashem when we are in a matter that is triggering fear? Remembering that all there is to fear is Hashem places that fear in a perspective that can help. Why? Because we know our survival depends on Hashem and He Alone runs the world including every circumstance and trigger for our thoughts and emotions. We have free will in the area of fearing Hashem. Do we understand fear of Hashem as a pathway that can help? And even if we aspire to it, in the moment, will we or will we not avail ourselves of the tremendous elevation possible when we overlay our lives with fear of Hashem?
The truth is we are confused. And in that moment of confusion, Hashem, Who is One, tolerates our confusion, He bears the discomfort of us not knowing with clarity that He is One, our Father Who loves us. This is the story since we ingested from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. We are confused and Hashem sustains us every single moment, just as He sustains us from the moment of birth, so He sustains us even at this moment of confusion, waiting patiently for us to grind our confusion down into clarity that He is One.
Hashem is patient with us in our condition of anxiety, of confusion, of uncertainty with no ability to really know what will be the next second or what is in the hearts and minds of other people who we may perceive as threats or as sources of pain or as treasures we fear to lose. Hashem is patient with us awaiting us to remember that He is the Source, the Only Source, the Only Power Who gives us life in this lower world in order for us to join together His Thought, our soul, with His Utterance, our natural reaction, in an atmosphere of loving Hashem for subjecting Himself to this suffering and confusion just to give us the opportunity to dissolve His energy from His Utterances back into the His energy of the Ein Sof, His Thoughts, unifying His Name and opening a channel into time and space where our confusion blocked His Thoughts from flowing through our hearts and into our speech and deeds.
When His Thoughts, which are all good including good in our eyes, flows through our hearts, we experience calmness, clarity, inner well-being. When we grind ourselves into dust, He can be seen, and we enjoy the only true pleasure there is, which is being that vessel to reveal. Believing this to be true, we immediately bear the discomfort of all the confusion around us, despite how deliberately organized and crafted with wisdom the attacks and accusations toward Israel may seem, and we affirm in our speech and deed that there is only One Wisdom and only One Source to direct our trust and invest our love and awe.
People, nations, natural disasters in the perspective of being hashgachah pratis totally under the dominion of Hashem despite it coming through the yetzer hara connects us in thought to a higher world, a world where Hashem is NOT concealed. In the world of thought, we can connect to a higher world where through prayer and hisbodidus we CAN discern that we are inseparable from Him. With that slight elevation above the wildly overwhelming nature of our lives, we have the courage to bear the discomfort of the confusion in order to acknowledge our Father with love and awe. Doing so above our natural reactions is an act of emulating Hashem Who bears the burden of our confusion and we show rachamim on the Shechina trapped in His Utterances appearing as nature. We glue ourselves to Him and spare ourselves the travails of thinking there is anything other than Hashem. We can actively bring awareness of Hashem’s Unity to our consciousness. We can each time we fall back into natural forces and lower fear repeat this process. Each time we do, we reveal His Light. And that is the solution for all the world, for Hashem’s Glory to be seen in every atom of earth, wind, fire and water.
When we overcome our nature, the ill effects of unrectified elements of water/desire, fire/arrogance, wind/flightiness, and earth/sadness, laziness that impact us when our perceptions experience danger, Hashem’s light fills these elements water/Torah, fire/passion, wind/proper utterances, and earth/solid representation of His Glory. Hashem desires to be in this world.
What would happen if we courageously trust in Hashem? Might our conquering our inner elements of nature, pulling back our triggered reactions through the hard work of bringing Hashem into the picture, provide the revelation of His Glory that could lead to the ultimate redemption? Are we willing to do the verbal introspection to grind our nature in order to do so?
May we be inspired to seek the courage to turn the natural conditions we experience into channels that unify and sanctify Hashem’s Name.